Small Successes
I know I title a lot of my posts like that, and then two days later I’m posting about another crash and burn. But I’m going to write about it anyway.
Tonight I worked out. After a day of business and a big indulgence, and while K was still here before leaving for work. After a family activity, and with the beginnings of a headache. That makes two days now. Friday and Saturday.
I decided a few nights ago (after the must get it together post) that I needed to start making my daily to-do lists again. A day at a time. And my daily to-do needs to include working out. But since working out for an hour (I have this mental block that if I don’t work out for an hour, its not worth it and there’s no point) was seemingly so daunting, I was going to do something revolutionary. I was going to work out for 30 minutes. I know! Living on the wild side! I can wrap my mind around 30 minutes.
So Friday, I started my plan. I lifted weights, mostly upper body with one compound movement to include some squats, for 10 minutes. Then I did intervals in the treadmill for 20 minutes, alternating running at 5.0 mph for 2 minutes with walking at 4.0 mph and an incline (between 5 and 8%) for 2 minutes. There, done, presto. 30 minute workout, a good shake and sweat going on. A good burn on my muscles and bones.
Today, I was sore. My shoulders, upper back, triceps and pectorals. It felt good. Tonight I did a bunch of different kinds of squats and lunges for 10 minutes and then intervals for 20. Felt good.
And like I said, today was busy. Well, the afternoon was. This morning consisted of doing some dishes, taking a shower, feeding the kids and getting ready to go out with my friend. She came and got me at 1 (an hour late, not her fault) and we went to Chili’s where I had egg rolls and 2 cups of soup (they brought me the wrong kind, then the right kind, and I ate both). And then a molten lava cake. Which was SO GOOD. But huge, and over a thousand calories just on its own. Then we went to Gordman’s so she could show me around one of her favorite stores. Its a pretty cool store; I’ll probably go back when I am ready to spend some money.
She dropped me off at the house so that I could help K load up the kids for bowling with his family. We went to Fountain Valley Bowl, where we spent 3 hours bowling. Everyone else had pizza. I just drank some soda (probably too much, another factor for how hard it was to run tonight) and had a couple bites of pizza, still full from Chili’s. Bowling was fun. I got a 102 (pretty good for me), then a 161!!! Highest score of the night! I was so pleased with that. Then, the last game, I stuck true to my norm and bowled a 76. Sad. 🙂 But fun.
We got done at about 7:30 and came home to give the kids a bath. They were both filthy, and poor K2 is suffering from a nasty cold. We put them to bed, or rather K put them to bed while I started my workout. And when K2 started crying shortly after I finished my workout, I ran to the store to get some cold medicine (and a couple other things that K couldn’t get at Sam’s today while I was out with my friend). But I forgot white chocolate morsels for my oatmeal! Which I’m pretty bummed about. 🙂 I’ll live. I still have to go soon and get more Naturally More peanut butter at Walmart, so I’ll get them then. In the meantime, I need to use the almond butter that I have in the fridge that my taste buds are still adjusting to.
Anyway, with all that I’m happy that I didn’t try and talk myself out of working out tonight. It felt good, I feel good, and I really don’t have the “I’m too tired with this pregnancy” excuse anymore. I’ve gained about 10 pounds in the last 2 weeks, and I feel like it is safe to lose some of that without hurting the baby. If anyone’s reading this, please know I will eat plenty and I won’t do anything dangerous. I’ll just keep working out (30 minutes YAY), and stop binging, and I think at least some of the weight I’ve gained will come off so that I can continue to try and gain just 30 pounds with this pregnancy, and not all in one month. Sheesh.
Tomorrow is church, but I think I’m going to have to stay home with K2 so that K can take P and teach his class. I’m thinking nap while K2 naps. K2 hasn’t had a nap in the past two days and that hasn’t helped with his recovery from this cold. Poor little tike; I hate seeing him or P suffer with sickness.
So the key tomorrow is going to be staying out of the kitchen – Sundays are really bad for the munchies. Gonna make my daily list, even though it is a ‘day of rest’, just to keep myself on track. Sleep well!!
When your husband agrees that you need to get it together
That is a bad sign. Tonight, as we ate our rushed meal of frozen chicken nuggets, instant brocolli/cheese rice packet, I made the comment that I have to get it together. And K agreed with me. I said it was sad that he had to agree, and he was like, “well, what do you mean when you say that?” I said – I haven’t worked out in almost 2 weeks, I am eating everything out of control, I’m not getting anything done, I haven’t fixed a meal ahead of time in a week.” I didn’t mention how poorly I’ve been sleeping. Well, he was like “yup.”
And that’s how its been. I have gone to a bad place mentally. Today is the perfect example of how I’m feeling.
I got up (barely) to get P to school. Got her dressed, brushed, and fed and out the door in the snow. Wished it was a snow day.
Came home and went back to bed to read scriptures and doze off.
Got up when I heard K2 yelping, fed him his breakfast, made my own. Didn’t even bother to put fruit or veggie in my oatmeal. Just protein powder, sugar, peanut butter, butterscotch chips. Basically candy oatmeal. The only fruit we have left is frozen blueberries (only like in smoothies) and half an apple.
Sat down at computer and basically sat there until right before it was time to get P from school.
Went back upstairs to have a conversation/wake up K until it was time to go. Was going to get him to go, but he didn’t want to and I didn’t have a good reason to make him. I have 4 wheel drive.
Went to get P.
Came home, ate some licorice, a drink of soda.
Started making lentils and quinoa.
Watched TV, read on the computer, helped P with homework. Generally was restless and didn’t know what to do with myself, because all I really wanted to do was eat or go to bed.
The whole afternoon passed this way. Computer, TV, eating. Had licorice, Runts, soda, my lunch of quinoa and lentils w/ cauliflower, celery, and carrots. More licorice, more Runts. More. More until licorice and Runts are gone.
Made a “schedule” for next week with K about which day to do which renovations/preparations for the move.
Was useless some more.
Dinner time arrived without much preparation from me, so we tried to go cash a check to get enough money for some fast food (for shame!). The check wouldn’t cash because the girl that wrote it and told me to cash it Thursday probably didn’t expect me to try and cash it at her bank since mine was already closed. There wasn’t enough fundage, so no fast food. So we headed back home to make our chicken nuggets and rice as fast as possible to give K barely enough time to wolf down his food before he had to leave for work.
I’m still wearing the clothes I put on to take P to school. I didn’t put on a bra until about 4:30 PM. I’ve eaten so much candy and sugar in the past 24 hours that I have terrible gas and no one can stand to be around me, least of all me. I did brush my teeth this morning. Kudos to me.
What the heck is wrong with me?? Its like I’ve sunk into this hole of complacency, anti-motivation, depression, uselessness. There are things I could be doing!!! I could work out! Just because we don’t have money to buy the paint yet doesn’t mean I can’t be cleaning or organizing or even just making lists. Good grief.
So, like I said, I’ve got to get it together. I should start tonight with working out. I should. I feel so nasty right now from chicken nuggets and sugar and gas that I can’t even imagine trying to run on the treadmill or even walk. But I have to do something to break this nasty cycle. This is a downward spiral and I’m picking up speed. Things are not going to get easier next week when we’re fixing up the house. Quite the opposite. Things are not going to be easier after K leaves for Utah and leaves me here with the kids and a house to sell. Again, the opposite.
So I have to get it together. Now. Right now. Can you hear me trying to talk myself out of this??? Because I can, but I also hear a voice in the back of my head that says to eat another bowl of candy oatmeal instead of doing the dishes. Or drink some leftover soda before it goes flat. Or “go to bed early” so that I don’t have to work out, when that always turns into staying up late to watch TV, even if I don’t eat at the same time.
Wish me luck on throwing myself a lifeline.
Ecstatic! I get to QUIT
My job. Again. Yes, since I quit once already in Oct of 2008, people might not believe I actually don’t want to work outside my home. But its true, I don’t. I want to focus on my family and my children, which I don’t feel I’m doing very well even working part-time. Some people are good at time management and seem to do it all – I’m not one of those people, though I’d like to learn to be.
Anyway, my point is, with all this moving stuff coming up like a full-speed train, I’m REALLY having a hard time focusing and getting it done with work. And its constantly getting worse – how much they’re asking me to do while they know I haven’t agreed to work more hours. So basically they want me to be superwoman and get it all done in the short 12 hours a week I’ve agreed to work. So tomorrow, I’m giving notice. They’re going to freak out, and maybe be angry. But I didn’t know this job offer was coming, I had no idea or way to predict even a week ago that we’d have decided to move so quickly. Last Monday, none of this had happened.
So, quitting, tomorrow. I have to write up a letter today, and serve it to my supervisor. My parents suggested that as a part-time, no benefits employee I have no obligation to give them 2 weeks notice or serve them with a letter. But my DH disagrees that whether I’m obligated to or not, that’s not the level of professionalism to which I hold myself. And he’s right. So I’m going to type it up and print it off to take with me tomorrow. And tomorrow will be an interesting afternoon.
I’m going to go back to working out at nights. I’m feeling better, more energetic, and the days are going to be very busy for a while. Today, I watched my friends youngest two kids while she took care of a funeral that fell to her to do since it is her new calling at church. I was glad to help her, but I really don’t enjoy watching other people’s children. I’m never going to be a person that could run a daycare. 🙂 Anyway, I had intended to work out this afternoon but having them here threw me off and I’m going to do it tonight – and stay out of the kitchen.
We Are Moving, and Cleaning House for Different Reason
Over the last 5 days, K has sold his business as of the end of January, gotten a job offer (totally unexpected and not solicited), and we’ve decided to sell our house and move to Utah.
Can I just tell you I’m freaking out?????? There is so much to think about that I’ve been medicating my brain with food and TV. Eat and watch to shut down the brain. Not a good combination.
I’m excited about this. I don’t feel like going into details because it is just too much to type tonight and I don’t think I can get started or I won’t be able to stop. Suffice it to say that each night I lay down and can’t get my brain to shut up so that I can sleep. And during the day I walk around in a daze thinking about all the stuff that has to get done and how it is going to happen.
K will be leaving no later than the 8th of February to start his new job in Utah on the 9th. Which means the kids and I will be staying here to try and sell the house on our own. Scary. Terrifying. But I think I’m up for it. A lot will have to be done to the house before K leaves, so the first week of February when he is technically unemployed will be a very busy week for that man. We also have to figure out our vehicle situation because right now we’re a one-vehicle family and that won’t do if he’s going to leave me here. He’ll need a vehicle and so will I.
Ok, that’s details. Not going to start.
Today, I basically cleaned the whole house. Some places, I cleaned deeper than others. But let’s see if I can list it all out: I vacuumed upstairs, edging and washing floorboards in some places. Dusted upstairs, wiping down windows in a couple of places (where dog noses have coated the window). Helped both kids clean their rooms and dusted them. Sorted some laundry, though I haven’t washed much of it yet. Moved a bunch of laundry downstairs into the laundry room so the door can be shut. Vacuumed the stairs, washing the floorboards and the handrailing. Sorted through the floor of the coat closet junk and put a bunch of stuff away. Tidied downstairs and cleaned the kitchen. It hasn’t been this clean in a LONG time and the end where we leave keys, wallets, and every other dump-out-pockets item is almost bare (AWESOME – I wish I could manage to keep it this way). Swept and vacuumed the edges downstairs and then mopped the kitchen and new hardwood laminate. Washed the back glass sliding doors on both sides to get the dog gunk off, too bad I can’t get the dog scratches out. Dusted downstairs. Changed the “slip-cover” sheet on the couch so its a clean one, washed off the table and put out a tablecloth. Cleaned the half-bath toilet, floor, and sink that is next to the kitchen. Washed off some cupboards in the kitchen. Cleaned the stove (still need to clean the oven). Walked around the backyard picking up bottle tops, squished bottles, and stuffed-animal-stuffing to make it a little more presentable. Didn’t even try to clean up the poop – that’s a project for another day. Did dishes and more dishes. Washed marker and crayon off the walls in the stairwell.
I feel like I’m forgetting stuff, but that might be it. It was a lot. The reason this all came about today is because we are entertaining our first guests EVER that aren’t family tomorrow evening after church. A family that invited us to dinner a couple months ago is coming over with their 3 boys for dinner. We’re having hawaiian haystacks, cobbler and ice cream for dessert. I hope it tastes good; it doesn’t seem like a fancy or classy meal, but I think everyone will be able to make a plate that appeals to them. I hope. I’m nervous, and I wanted our poor, beat-up house to make as good of an impression as it can. As I cleaned, it just made it more apparent to me that this might not be an easy house to sell. I’m going to need a lot of praying.
My mother told me last night to just take it one day at a time. Today was for cleaning and getting the supplies for the haystacks. I’ve cleaned, and that kept me pretty mindless at most points. I sent K for the supplies because he had an appointment at 3:30 anyway. I made the kids dinner when K still wasn’t home by 5:00 and we were all hungry. K called me at 5:45 to tell me he’d just left his appointment and still had to go to the store, and when he gets home he wants to go see his friend who is in town and leaving in the morning. I want him to see his friend, but I also don’t want to be left here alone with the kids when I’m facing literally months alone with them without him.
We’re moving to Utah. I think I will be so messed up if this falls through. We haven’t started telling people here yet except for family. I’ve only told my parents and one sister, and that was just because she happened to call me about something else the evening that K made the decision to take the job (while I was taking a nap no less, I woke up and he’d taken the job). I want to tell everyone because its all I can think about, but I have to wait. I could tell the rest of my family, but it could still fall through and then I’d just feel like a fool for ONCE AGAIN jumping the gun. Happens a lot with a husband who is constantly changing his “plan”. Two months ago, he as going to join the Navy and be a nurse officer. So who knows?
We’re moving to Utah. Him in 2.5 weeks, us whenever the house sells. I pray that this is the right thing for our family, because if it is I truly believe that the Lord will help the house sell quickly. But sometimes its so hard to know the Lord’s plan and His timeline for our lives.
Tomorrow, I need to focus on church and feeding the family coming to visit us. That’s what I can do tomorrow. So hopefully I’ll be able to get to sleep tonight?
Almost Going Vegan and other Catch-up Items
This weekend was fun, if FULL of food and not very productive. Saturday, I grocery shopped as planned. Got almost everything I wanted to get and kept well within my budget. Of course, we’re now broke for the next two weeks, so I hope all the healthy food I purchased lasts. 🙂
Saturday night, K’s sister came and got the kids and I (since K had to work) and took us over to K’s other sister’s house for her surprise birthday party. She was turning 30, having a hard time with it, so her sister had planned a fun surprise party with a funeral theme. Her mom kept her out of the house all afternoon, which turned out to be no easy feat since F was tired and cranky. Anyway, we all hid in the kitchen when they arrived; but F headed straight downstairs for a potty break without even looking upstairs, so that drew out our agony of keeping kids quiet in the kitchen. It was a relief to jump out at her and be done with the surprise part.
It was a typical G-Family get-together. Loud, good food, lots of screaming kids and shouting adults, and lots of laughter and mocking of the birthday girl and her “old” age. Her presents were fun, wrinkle cream and stuff like that along with some fun gifts, one of which unexpectedly made her tear up very uncharacteristically. Older sister, L, made the food and it was two types of soup and bread. I couldn’t get past the first soup to even try the second. It was AMAZING. She’s supposed to send me the recipe – I’ll probably have to harrass her for it. It was tortellini, a mild tomatoey broth, zucchini and carrots. AWESOME. Had probably 4 bowls and wanted to eat more but I would have exploded.
K showed up from work at about 8, he ate dinner and we all hung out for a while longer. Then home for sleep and more work for him. Sunday was largely uneventful until after church, when I had a meltdown over kids at church and my aggravation with having to deal with them. No details needed there – K lectured me, made me cry (pregnancy, hello), and then made me feel better. All was well.
Then we went to L’s house for breakfast for dinner. Stuffed french toast, covered in cream, powdered sugar, and syrup (I held the syrup because I’m very healthy-ha), fruit tray (pineapple, kiwi, banana, apple) with delicious cream cheese fruit dip, bacon, sausage, scrambled eggs and juice. Oh My Gosh. I practically ate myself into a coma, and then some.
We were there until after 9, so its a good thing P didn’t have school yesterday. Yesterday consisted of me sleeping in, trying to get a few things done before work (not including a workout), and then heading to the office VERY unenthusiastically. Work was busy, gave me a killer headache, and lasted longer than usual since K couldn’t get K2 to wake up from his HOUR long nap. SO not long enough for the little one, who is still recovering from being sick and then having diarrhea all weekend.
Its a good thing K made dinner last night (beef tips, noodles, zucchini – I held the noodles and had lettuce), because my head hurt and I was in a foul mood. K decided that he was too worried about K2 and his diarrhea to go to work at 6 and called in “kid-sick” as it were, not that he’s really allowed to do that. I talked K down that K2 didn’t need to go to the ER – he was still drinking, eating, and yes, pooping some nasty runny stuff. But he was acting like he felt fine, he wasn’t dehydrated, and he didn’t have a fever. But he’d already called in, so we were blessed with K’s presence for the evening, which was really nice.
K and I ended up finally watching the video called “Eating” that I’d been loaned by my friend that has gone vegan. It was very interesting and brought up a lot of good points. But I’ve done some more research today (a lot of it scriptural) and we’ve decided we need to improve our diet but it won’t include cutting out meat or meat products entirely. We just need to eat them more sparingly, so we’re working on a plan for that. Well, mostly I’m working on a plan for that. 🙂 I really had almost decided that the only logical choice for me was to go vegan – the passion and enthusiasm of my friend that has done it was so contagious and I’d kind of gotten sucked in. I respect and admire her and I hope being vegan heals her ailments like she thinks it is doing. I will take a more moderate choice. But this has all opened my eyes to some definite improvements we could make in our diets – especially in my husband’s and my children’s diets. If I find any yummy recipes for the family or fun products that are just great and cut down on our consumption of antibiotic e-coli filled meat products – I’ll share.
Today I ran on the treadmill for the first time in weeks, and my first workout at all in a week. I did one of my Oxygen full body compound-movement workouts first, and then ran/incline walked for 34 minutes. I wasn’t able to run as much as I was a couple months ago, so I’ve definitely lost a little endurance. K has told me that I need to start being “selfish” again about my workouts and my eating so that I’ll feel good – so I’m trying. I did the workout while P was at school, even commandeered the TV from my two year old, and it went fine. I have felt really good ever since.
I decided to make taco soup in the crock pot for dinner – it just sounded really good. I modified a recipe from a blog I read, and used ground turkey. I’m going to make some corn bread from scratch here in a bit to go with it. I cleaned the bathrooms upstairs and I’ve eaten healthy snacks and meals today – even resisted having K make me a hotdog when he made himself and the kids one for lunch.
Doing well!! Didn’t eat myself into a coma last night for the first night in a while. Wish me luck tonight. Had a great scripture study session this morning studying the Word of Wisdom (a Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints thing), and that always makes me feel good to start the day off right. I’ve been trying to pray for help more – I know He’s willing to help me if I just make the effort to let Him.
Anyway, off to trial-run my first ever from-scratch cornbread. Have a great night!
Chronicles of a Friday
Yesterday was going pretty normally. P didn’t have school, so I slept in and didn’t have time to do much beyond get the kids and I breakfast and put my MK order in. No workout (the shame).
Got ready for work and the family took me to the office, where I had my lentils, quinoa in coconut milk, and cauliflower and then a LOT of chocolate throughout the afternoon. Also had about an hour chat with a coworker that is usually too busy to stop and chat for a bit, so that was nice. I found out to my surprise that she is almost vegetarian – she rarely eats meat and doesn’t miss it. She is also very slender after losing weight years ago. She has a patter and she sticks to it. I’ve never seen anyone be so religious with eating a Chobani yogurt and a dish of fresh fruit for lunch EVERY DAY. I’m always jealous of her Chobani. 🙂 We talked about lots of things, but that was the part of the conversation that was most interesting to me considering my Thursday with my friend K.
Work after that was pretty busy, including a new assignment from my boss. The fam picked me up late….. because of the bizarreness that was the rest of our evening.
K2 puked on the way to pick me up. K had to buy some cleaner and paper towels and clean him and his carseat up on the side of the road. K called me to explain why they were late and ask me to bring down a plastic bag to put the pukey clothes in because they reeked. They were only about 10 minutes late and then we set out to find a cheap store to stop at and get him clothes on our way to bowling with K’s family for a niece’s birthday. And on the way, K2 puked two more times. K got him some on-sale clothes at KMart on the way, but we didn’t put him in them because he kept barfing everywhere. When we got to the bowling alley, we got him dressed and he seemed fine the whole time we were there. The family of honor was 30 minutes late. Then, the mother of honor had to leave right after arrival to buy her daughter’s friend socks. She was gone for another 30 minutes. In the meantime, the lanes were breaking every couple of bowls. We finally were shoved into a quick decision of getting refunds and leaving by K’s sister. K left them some money, though, since we had done some bowling. Come to find out that they had purchased the bowling alley a week ago and were struggling with a lemon. Poor guys. Probably literally.
Anyway, the decision was made to go to K’s older sister’s house (the mom of birthday girl that was an hour late) for cake and stuff before the young teenagers went to a movie or something. And on the way, K2 puked again all over his new clothes. So we went home instead. Got K2 bathed up, put the kids to bed at their bedtime (a little later). K2 woke up at 11:30 having puked in his crib. Got it all changed and him changed and back in bed, and 10 minutes later he woke (probably was still awake) again crying because he’d gotten sick again. Went through the whole thing again, new sheet, fresh clothes, new blanket. And thankfully he slept the rest of the night. I woke up at 5 AM sure that I’d heard one of my kids crying very faintly. But when I got up and checked on them both, they were fine. Not sure what I heard.
Anyway, one more thing. When we got home last night we discovered that our dog Daisy, the 6-month old puppy, had ripped a huge hole in our linoleum in the entryway of the bathroom right by the kitchen. About two feet by one foot. We were both so upset. Add that to the fact that since we stopped blocking her in the bathroom, she’s been chewing on the door frame on the outside of the bathroom. Our house just gets more and more destroyed. K says he wants her gone, but I think he’ll stop being angry and keep her. I can only hope she’ll be gone.
Today needs to be cleaning and grocery shopping. I also need to work out. I have a limit on my spending today, so I’m going to have to bargain hunt because there are some things I really want to get, like some Almond milk and some Chobani yogurts. 🙂 Tonight is K’s sister’s birthday dinner, and the kids and I will have to have a ride because stupid J flaked out last night and now K has to go to Canon City on a Saturday night which he normally wouldn’t have to do. Have a great Saturday!
So What’s the Program
Basically, the program or dietary method that my friend K has switched to and wanted to educate me about is veganism. I’m not anti, but I’m not sure I can or want to go there. I’m not even vegetarian right now, and I believe that animals were put on this earth for us to eat sparingly. I think (have thought for a while) that I (and my family) eat too much meat. But I hadn’t really entertained any ideas other than cutting us down to meat 2-4 times a week at night-time meals rather than all 7.
I have the DVD that we didn’t get through at her house because we kept pausing it to talk. I will watch it, and from what I’ve seen so far I’ll probably agree with what it presents. She wanted me to watch it with my husband; that’s still uncertain.
I am not by any means saying I’m going to go vegan, or even vegetarian. But I’m entertaining the idea, I’m getting more educated. I’m keeping an open mind. I fully agree that my children need to ingest better nutrition. Less sugar FOR SURE, more fruits and vegetables, less meat. So even if my education leads to my children eating better and me making a few more tweaks to my WOE (way of eating), that will be a good thing. I’ve already made so many changes to the way I eat over the last year – and I’m open to new ideas and WOE’s. But I haven’t made nearly as many changes to my children’s diet, and in fact with my distraction their diet probably has deteriorated due to convenience foods in convenient packaging, though they do eat better at dinner time than they used to.
Anyway, there you have it.
Thursday, January 14
I am just not coming up with good blog titles. And I think that’s ok since this is more of a journal than anything. I never stick to one topic and I don’t think I’ve ever written a post that had a theme. So, blog titles be darned. 🙂
Yesterday was hectic. I got some dishes done, the dehydrated pineapple that went all night Tuesday packed up, roasted some garbanzo beans (again – roasted some Tuesday night and accidentally burnt them to a crisp), and cut up some potatoes to start a roast, carrots and potatoes in the crock pot for Wed night dinner. Then I did a T-Tapp Tempo workout, got showered and ready for work, and the family took me to work.
At work, I got caught up on some stacked up paperwork at my sort-of-desk (I don’t technically have a desk, I use the walk-up). I also got to talk to my sister for about 40 minutes when she called to give me her Mary Kay order. I hadn’t talked to her in a while, so I was glad to take the time out from working to chat with her. We talked about what she’s been up to, her holidays (they went to Japan to visit our younger brother and his family), our exercise and weight situations (she looks FABULOUS!), work, my trip to Japan in March, and my pregnancy. It was nice to catch up a little.
After a busy afternoon of working, the fam picked me up and we went to pick up the truck that K is borrowing from a friend for the weekend to do some hauling from our garage. We had to stop on the way home for him to fill it up with antifreeze and more oil. I have to use it to get P from work in 20 minutes, so I hope he gets down here and makes sure its going to get me there and back. Should be interesting since I’ve never driven it before and it is a manual.
After we got home with both vehicles, we hurriedly ate the roast/potatoes/carrots from the crockpot that turned out quite yummy. Then we both got ready to go again, me with the kids and K to work. My friend picked the kids and I up for my Presidency meeting at the church. It was nice to chat with her on the way over. When we got there, I had time to help P with her homework before our meeting started. Then the kids played with some blocks that we found in the nursery while we had our hour and a half meeting. They were very good, if sometimes a bit noisy. We left the church at about 8, got home and I got the kids in bed as quickly as possible. And proceeded to pig out on both bagels I’d gotten from the office. And some hot chocolate, and some white chocolate morsels. Geez. Hiding upstairs isn’t working very well.
While I’m getting P, K and K2 will be on their way to Denver to pick up K’s mom at the airport; she’s coming in for the weekend for K’s sister’s birthday.
So while they’re gone, P and I are going over to my friend, K’s house for lunch and a DVD about some nutritional information thing. I’m always interested to know what new information K has found about how to eat our way to optimal health, and I love spending time with her but rarely get to. I’m trying not to be bummed that I have to take P with me, I’m sure P will manage to be quiet and let me focus for a while. I’m going to have her take a coloring book and ask her to please let me talk and chat and we’ll play when we get home this afternoon.
I also will need to work out this afternoon since I chose to sleep for a while after taking P to school this morning. In fact, I should go put on a bra before I have to get P from school. 🙂
Ok, back from getting P and we’re both ready to go to K’s house. We’ll leave in about 20 minutes to walk over there since its pretty nice today.
I wanted to write about my breakfast from this morning first, though. It wasn’t anything spectacular, but it was a combination that I haven’t previously tried and it turned out pretty dang yummy. I have a couple packets of Nature’s Path Organic instant oatmeal that my mom gave to me. The flavor is Maple Nut (hazlenuts), and I’ve only eaten a couple of them because I didn’t love it (think I made it too thick). So this morning, I made sure I made it a little thinner with a little more water (I also mixed in a half-scoop of vanilla whey protein powder to the dry oatmeal first), then I put some microwaved raspberries and blackberries on top with some dollops of Naturally More peanut butter. And, the new twist, a sprinkling of white chocolate morsels.
It was SO GOOD!! I didn’t know if I’d like the white chocolate with all the other flavors, but it was awesome. The morsels melted and turned into surprise bits of sweetness with the tartness of the berries and savory peanut butter. I’ve already deciding I’m having the same thing tomorrow. It will be my last packet, so after that I’ll have to make it with plain instant oatmeal.
I’ve been meaning to try some real oats, or groats, or some whole grain for a while. Maybe the kind you have to cook overnight. But I’m not sure where to start.
Monday, January 11
The weekend was pretty uneventful. Friday at work was busy as usual, though not frantic. I got all the things on my list done on Thursday. Friday night I watched that entire mini-series (called The Tinman), and it was pretty good. I should have known that if it was good I wouldn’t want to stop and finish it later, so I was up pretty late.
Slept in on Saturday and then hung out with the family, eventually falling asleep on the couch in a weird position and sleeping almost all afternoon while K put K2 to nap after the kids played for a few hours and then he and P watched TV while I snored. It was awesome. Other than sleeping, the main activity on Saturday was eating. Saturday night I prepared my sharing time lesson for Sunday and felt ok about it.
Sunday, we went to church. We sure are enjoying it being a little later. Sleep in, breakfast, getting ready leisurely instead of frantic. Primary was the smoothest for me so far – I conducted and did Sharing Time for the first time all by myself and it wasn’t horrible. I got a few things out of order, took too long for my lesson and didn’t leave the music ladies enough time, but over all it wasn’t too bad. Nice to have it done. We went home, had lunch, and hung out for an hour or so until we headed up to Monument for dinner.
Oh, wait, I forgot about the most interesting event of the day. Right before church, I wasn’t feeling well so I figured I was hungry and I ate a quick sandwich thin pb & honey. Not much honey or pb, and I ate it pretty fast. Then, as we got in the car I was feeling worse and worse, and as we were driving out of the neighborhood I’m wondering if I’m going to have to puke on the side of the road. Tried to breathe through it. But then, sure enough, “K pull over right there!” I managed to whisper, and then I got out and puked on the curb at the edge of a field. At least it wasn’t in front of someone’s house. It was awful, standing there, holding my dress up, trying not to let it spatter on my heels or get in my hair. When I finally got back in the H3, K said that P had asked when I was going to get done puking and get back in the car. He wanted to know if he needed to take me home and drop me off, and I said I thought I was ok now. I did feel better, for a while. He also wanted to know if I was going to have barf breath. Um, probably. But I had gum with me so all was well. I felt kind of icky the rest of the day, but I’d never had to upchuck on the side of the road before.
Today, K graciously took P to school for me, so I slept in until 9:30. There wasn’t time to work out after that, so I’m going to run/walk tonight after the kids are in bed. Though I don’t want to. Work today was super-busy. Dinner was a unique concoction of K’s that turned into some pretty yummy burritos.
And now the kids are watching Toy Story and we’re eating some leftover cinnamon bread from the freezer from the last time we ordered pizza. P did her homework while I was at the office today, for once.
Tomorrow there’s not much going on, but there are some different things this week. Wednesday night I have a Primary presidency meeting, to which I’ll have to have a ride and take the kids. Should be interesting. Thursday, I’m meeting with my friend, K, to have lunch at her house and watch a DVD about her latest nutritional program. I love listening to her and getting advice from her about nutrition, though I can’t always afford to take her advice.
Hiding Upstairs – literally
So I knew that for the last few nights that I’ve kept my eating under control after the kids go to bed, I’ve been telling K that I was “hiding” upstairs from the kitchen.
Last night I decided to watch a movie after the kids went to bed, and we don’t have a DVD player upstairs, so I stayed downstairs. And sure enough, I ate. I had my normal snack before the kids went to bed. And after…… 2 bowls of generic Apple Jacks, 2 fun size Snickers, and 2 small handfuls of candied almonds.
Tonight, I want to start a mini-series on DVD that my friend let me borrow to watch called Tinman, a modern take on Wizard of Oz. But I’d have to watch it downstairs.
I need to figure out how to ‘close the kitchen’ to myself and then stick to it. Last night, I was hungry, but I could have left my snack at something healthy and then stopped. I don’t want to have to “hide” upstairs in order to keep from pigging out at night when I work out in the morning.
Tonight, I’m going to send a text message to my mom, maybe my friend R, that the kitchen is ‘closed’ and ask them to keep me accountable by asking me if I ate. If I answer yes, it needs to be that I ate some carrots, or some steamed cauliflower, or a kiwi (not just those, but you get the idea). Text to K, too, but he is altogether too understanding of my eating issues, and a little afraid of me and trying to make me accountable. For good reason since I’ve snapped at him many-a-time for trying to help me curb my eating.
Ok, I have to go ask K if he’s willing to wake up in 30 minutes to go get P from school. If not, I don’t have time to work out before the office today. Since P’s school gets out an hour early on Fridays, this is something I’m going to have to address every Friday. This will be my fourth day of T-Tapp Tempo in a row. I’m sore in some cool places, and I want to keep up this momentum. Planning T-Tapp today, and treadmill tomorrow. Then back to T-Tapp on Monday.
Comfy in My Skin 