Hope I can remember the rest

March 31, 2010 at 10:23 am (General Life Updates)

Ok, so it is Wednesday. I’ve been back from my trip since Sunday night. But it feels like I just barely got settled because of all that has been going on since my return. But I figured I need to write down the rest of the trip before I forget – of course it won’t do justice to the actual experience. Hopefully what I do manage to write down will trigger the actual memories for me in the future. I have Wednesday through Sunday to record and I’m afraid I’m already going to have to ask my SIL for reminders. Here we go.

Tuesday night we watched Big Fish. Weird movie. It was ok I guess – had some funny parts.

Wednesday we woke to cloudy, rainy day, just as predicted. Which is why we’d gone to the beach two days in a row. I was burnt from the second day, but it was worth it. We got ready and headed out for Shurijo Castle, a restored old Japanese castle. It was so neat, with different sections for the royalty, the concubines, the tea rooms, the throne room, and the religious guys (whatever they’re called in the Japanese religion). The royal rooms were dark red with gold and statues. The tea rooms were the look I think of when I think of Japanese architecture – with light unstained wood and open rooms leading to one another through sliding doors with white opaque squares in them that would probably cast shadows of the people in the room if the light was shining just right. The floors were the same unstained wood and it was all open and airy. So beautiful. There were hallways with pictures and historical information – we read some of it and skipped some of it. Sometimes I’m not a very good tourist. We were there for an hour or so, maybe more because of all the pictures we took and bathroom breaks and then browsing the gift shop at the end of the self-guided tour.

After there, we went to lunch. And now I’m trying to remember where we ate. I think it was the Thai in the Sky place. A gorgeous simple Thai restaurant on a hill overlooking the ocean with green gardens and lots of trails and benches for sitting and enjoying the view, and an open, airy dining room where we had a family-style Thai meal. I really enjoyed some of the dishes, like the PadThai (sp?), but I didn’t get much of it because that was the kids’ favorite too and we had to make sure they had enough to eat that wasn’t too spicy. The two chicken dishes we got were tasty, too. Some of the dishes, such as the salad and the soup were too spicy for me to really enjoy them. I think my brother got some pictures of the gardens – I’m going to have to get those from him, along with a lot of other pictures he took with his professional camera all week.

After lunch, we headed back to the house so that my bro D could lay down while his daughter J napped. The rest of us, including little B, went shopping on one of the army bases for souvenirs. After much agonizing (shouldn’t have been so hard but I’m not used to spending money on frivolous items), I got a jewelry box for P with a cute Japanese cover over a mirror, K2 a stuffed shi-sa dog that squeaks, myself some really cool bowls – set of 4 (great for oatmeal!!), and a jade shi-sa dog necklace. I couldn’t figure out what to get K, nor was I able to pick a kimono robe, so I knew I’d have to go back a different day.

I think Wed night was the night we went to a Japanese restaurant called Genka (or something like that). And had sushi. Or they did, and I had one brief bite and then tried to just eat the cooked parts of dinner.

Ok – if that WAS the night we had Genka, it was the night we went to a bath house. Mineral pool almost as warm as a hot tub, colder pool that was beautiful but that I had no desire to get into (it was cold and windy), hot tub, saunas, a “naked zone” where you could sit in another mineral pool and then shower Japanese style sitting on a bench or stool. I didn’t go in the naked zone – had no desire to have my pregnant junk out for all the little Japanese ladies to see, though they probably wouldn’t have cared. But the mineral pool was blissful and even though it hurt my sunburn for the first few seconds, I thoroughly enjoyed it. In the front foyer before we got in the pools, we experienced “Doctor Fish”, where you sit around a little rectangular foot pool and put your feet in for the little fish to eat off the dead skin from your feet and lower legs. I lasted about 10 seconds – it tickled so bad! And the idea that a little live fish was trying to get the dead skin between my toes was too much.

After the bath house, we headed home and then the girls headed out to go to Yogurtland. Yum. American, but yum. That is, IF that was Wednesday night and not Thursday.

Thursday, what the heck did we do Thursday???? Geez. I’m going to have to update this after texting my bro later today. I don’t want to text now just in case he’s still asleep, though I don’t know why he would be at 9 AM.

I think Thursday night might have been the evening we had a fire on their upstairs balcony in a grill and made smores? Not sure!!! But whichever night that was, it was fun once I got over the spider webs ringing the balcony and the wind shifted so the smoke wasn’t in my face. 🙂 And the company was excellent!

Friday, we headed to the north end of the island. First we stopped at the pineapple village that I’d been looking forward to all week due to all the talking up my hosts had done. You start out riding in a little automated golf cart with a huge fake pineapple on top of it. The cart takes you on a tour around the pineapple gardens where the pineapples are actually growing, or at least some of them. There are also some pretty gardens. Then you get off the cart and walk through a little museum of sea creatures – shells in display cases of all kinds of aquatic animals, skeletons of sea cucumbers and all kinds of funky stuff. Pretty cool. Then there’s a shop where you can buy the picture the system took of you and your group in your cart. We skipped through that (can you say expensive?). Then you head into the part that had been raved about – the shop where they sell the pineapple products – and you can eat free samples of everything! It starts with the pineapple wine, which we skipped since we don’t drink. Then pineapple vinegar and juices – YUM! I almost splurged and got some pineapple vinegar – would’ve been a cool think to have on salads instead of balsamic vinegar. If my group had lingered in there any longer, long enough for me to commit my money, I probably would have. But we continued on. Pineapple cakes, cookies, pies, shortbreads, more shortbreads, more cakes, pancakes, chocolate (mixed with white I think) and so on. We tried pretty much everything – some of it more than once. And once again, if my group had lingered longer I probably would have picked something to buy. Maybe.

After the pineapple village, we drove to Beach Rock Village and Cafe. It is a WWOOF site, Willing Workers on Organic Farms, where the people that run the farm, the cafe, and the gardens live there for free in tents and teepees and huts, and they’re work is the payment they give for their lodging. There was a little rectangular gazebo of sorts with a bench facing out over the jungle vista where we sat on the floor in front of the bench to eat our pizza from the cafe. You can eat inside the main teepee, but we chose to eat outside. While waiting for our pizza we explored – walking up the wooden walkway to the tents of the residents, a dog pen, and some of the gardens, climbing into one of the big tree houses, after sliding down the little slide you can use to get to the main platform. My bro took pictures of all this, I’d left mine in the car. I’m lucky I remember it even happened! Sheesh. Lunch was good, though there wasn’t a ton of it between the 5 adults and two kids. The view was awesome, but it was kind of weird all facing the same way and not getting to really face each other and interact. I guess I’m a kill-joy, but I kind of like sitting on a chair and getting to see my dinner companions. 🙂 But I wouldn’t give up the experience!

After lunch, we walked down one of the jungle paths to the other tree house, which looked way too precarious for me to venture up it. The very top was a beehive like structure made out of colored glass and plexiglass, even the floor. It was pretty, and I’ll take some of my brother’s pictures to remember. But I wasn’t climbing up there with my belly and all – no way no how. After that, we walked back up the car and headed for our destination for the night – Okuma base where my SIL had reserved some rooms for us right on the beach. Unfortunately, it was so windy and cold, we basically shacked up for the late afternoon and evening, though the plan had been to go kayaking that afternoon. D and his daughter J took naps, we watched some movie on the TVs, and T and his girlfriend went for a walk in the cold. I hung out, read my book, and watched TV. Not really eventful, but it was nice to relax for a while. After a while, SIL A started dinner with all the supplies she’d brought. She made green curry and rice with eggplant, kombucha squash, shrimp, zucchini. It was so good! After dinner, we hung out some more and then we put the kids down, set up the baby monitor, and headed to the second room where T, his girlfriend, and I were going to stay (me and the girlfriend in the bedroom on the two queens, and T in the living area on the pull-out couch. I was basically their chaperone:) to watch a movie. We watched Pure Luck, on the condition that none of us quoted it or pre-laughed since T’s girlfriend hadn’t seen it. That was her condition, and it kind of took the fun out of watching it with my two brothers since we’d already been quoting it all week and it is one of our favorite family movies just because of all our history of quoting it. I couldn’t even stay awake through it all and dozed off so much I finally got up and went to bed toward the end – about 9:30. And then I slept until 8. Wow. Had to get up a few times to pee – stupid toilet was as loud as a typhoon, but it had to be done.

In the morning, it was warmer and less windy. We got packed up after we had some oatmeal for breakfast, and headed out for some adventures before we drove back down to the south end. We dropped T and his girlfriend off at Hiji Falls for them to hike up (none of the rest of us felt up the hike), set a time to meet to pick them up, and headed off to find a wildlife conservatory that D and A had seen signs for on previous trips but had never experienced. We found it, but unfortunately it was full of men with their shoes off painting it – it was either being renovated or still being built but it was very obviously not open for business. D was disappointed, but we decided to head to a park they’d been to before for me to see it. It had a campground, some really cool cabins and off-the-ground huts that were shaped like teepees on stilts, and a playground. The playground had this roller slide that was really fun, and we played there for a while with the kids. I’d seen video of them going to down similar roller slides, so it was great to get to experience it first hand. D and I also walked to another side to get some pics overlooking the ocean and jungle. After potty breaks, we headed back to pick up T.

A little Mexican restaurant (4 tables, 2 of which we had to use for the 7 of us) in a couple’s home was the next stop. D and A had heard it was the best, most authentic Mexican on the island. It was kind of a challenge to find, and it was a little weird because it was so small and we were the first people there. But it was good food, and probably my most filling meal in a restaurant the whole week. I had the enchilada “set”.

After lunch we headed south, stopping briefly at a pretty waterfall that wasn’t as much of a hike as Hiji. We took pictures and then headed out again.

We arrived at the house, I checked my email to make sure K hadn’t requested a specific present, and then A, T’s girlfriend, and myself headed back to the gift shops. Unfortunately, the shop that A wanted to take us to was closed, but I still managed to get K a t-shirt (which he doesn’t even really want), K2 a ninja headband, myself a gorgeous reversible kimono robe (pink with small lotus flowers, and then black with a gold embroidered dragon), and the kid bowl set that I had so admired the first afternoon of shopping. And a Cinnabon. 🙂 Quick stop at the commissary and gas station, and we were off to the house for our last evening in Japan.

D and A had a dinner group meet-up planned for Saturday night, so we went with. A made this yummy braided sandwich thingy from Pillsbury crescent roll dough, BBQ sauce, rotisserie chicken, cheese, and onions. Mmmmm. It was potluck, and there was two types of noodle salad, jello salad, rye bread with spinach dip, and brownies. A’s contribution was by far the yummiest and didn’t last long. I was only slightly bored as we talked with their friends – its kind of hard for me to engage when I know I’m never going to see someone again. But as usual I enjoyed my siblings’ company and the people were very nice. On the way home, we stopped at another FamilyMart so I could buy some Japanese chewy candies to bring back to the kids.

And then it was the house, to pack, to check into our flights online, and to sit around and chat for the last few minutes before bed.

Sunday morning came too early. I got up intending to work out really quickly to get the blood flowing in preparation for sitting for so long on my flights, but I couldn’t get their DVD drive in their computer to open. So I did the T-Tapp BWO from memory, which was actually plenty of workout and all I really had time for. A quick shower and last bits of packing later, scarfing down the yummy scones A made for breakfast, and then we were loading up to take T and GF to the airport. Then D and I headed for some time-killing site-seeing. We found a temple D had never been to, which led us to a beach and garden he’d never been to, and then drove down a commercial street in downtown Naha. Then back to the garden went to on that first day to finish looking at it (we’d had to leave quickly when D got called into a work for a brief). I’m glad we went back because the parts we missed were pretty cool.

And then the airport. The check-in line was pretty long, and D stayed with me as long as he could until I had to go through security to the waiting area. I said good-bye quickly so that I wouldn’t cry, and we parted. I hope it isn’t another 3 years before I see him again!

The trip back was uneventful. Long, didn’t get much sleep. Little Korean lady on the long flight kept hogging the area with her elbow. Finished my third book of the trip. Watched Blind Side (great!) and Fame (lame). Tried to get up to pee a lot, but they weren’t distributing as much water as the flight there, and I only got up the guts to hit my attendant button once. So I swelled – big time. By the time I got home my ankles and feet were ridiculous. Paced a lot in Seoul airport to try to help my sore butt, and tried to sleep a lot in San Fran airport.

Arrived in DEN 20 minutes early, got my baggage, and waited for my ride, trying to put my feet up. Checked nothing had broken in transit and was very relieved that everything was intact. It was so great to see my little ones!! P was so excited to see me and looked so pretty, and K2 was kind of shy with me for the drive home but warmed up soon after arriving at the grandparents’. Mom had made a lasagna with the timer on the oven, and we had a late dinner and I decided to stay up there since Dad said my kitchen was still dismantled from his tile installation and that the main floor of my house was a mess. So we put the kids to bed, and I followed pretty quickly after them after washing my feet in Mom’s bathtub (they were gross from my flip-flops, flights, and airports for 16+ hours). Slept pretty darn good.


Monday dawned – still felt so tired. Mom and Dad had already gone to work – the kids and I slept until a little after 7. We slowly got up, went upstairs, watched a little TV, had breakfast, and then I slowly got us packed up and loaded into the H3. We left Monument at about 10:30 and drove home. And Dad wasn’t kidding when he said my house was a mess. So we spent the morning upstairs unpacking and getting settled back in. Then I let the kids watch a little TV, put K2 down for a nap, let P play on the computer, and went to bed myself. Oh, after doing finances which totally depressed and stressed me out. Yay for being home from vacation.

Mom and Dad arrived after work around 4:20, which is when K2 and I got up from our naps. And we started trying to put the kitchen back together – or Mom and I tried to help Dad put it back together. Or stay out of his way. 🙂 Bottoms of cupboards were caulked, floorboards put back on, fridge, stove, washer, and dryer put back in place. Trap door to crawl space painted around edges. So at least I could get to use my kitchen and do laundry. Mom and I ordered pizza and by the time dinner was done and all the work was finished, the kids had barely been put to bed, and the parents left. I texted K a whole bunch and then took a blissful shower in my Western bathroom. Watched some TV in my new robe. And went to bed way too late – around 12:30. Then I couldn’t get to sleep. The kids had both woken up multiple times at this point – getting used to being home and missing their dad, and having achy legs. I didn’t get to sleep until almost 2, though I dozed before then. Then K2 woke up at 5 and needed medicine and comforting. And then I couldn’t get back to sleep! I got about 1 hour more before it was time to get up for P’s school.

Tuesday, Dad came down to finish up the work. He put the toilet and sink back, put the rest of the floorboards on, put a cover over the transition between laminate and tile, and finished packing up his tools. The floor looks amazing!!!!! While he was busy doing that, I was taking care of K2, picking P up from school, and going to the JP office, where they’d messed up our paycheck. So I had to go back after going home, making lunch (egg and hashbrown burritos – need groceries bad), letting the kids play outside for a bit, and then putting K2 down for a nap. I left P doing homework under Dad’s supervision while I went back to JP, got the corrected check and stopped at the requisite two banks to cash and deposit. Then home again.

Dad left around 3:30. P finished her homework and went outside to play. K2 got up shortly afterward to join her and I made sure the neighbors were ok with my kids being over there and then relaxed for a bit before starting dinner. We ate around 5:30 and then the kids played in the backyard for a while and then bath time and then bed. I got sleepy watching TV around 9:30, but didn’t go to bed until about 10:30 after eating leftover pizza. Stupid. Oh, well. I’m still recovering from jetlag, but at least last night my sleep was pretty normal.

Phew. This is SO long! Today has been kind of normal so far. Though I turned off the TV 20 minutes ago, which isn’t normal. I need to finish this post so I can play with K2 some since I’ve cut him off from his usual TV until P gets home. I’m trying to do better on the TV front, especially after they didn’t watch much at Grandma’s while I was gone and I was inspired by how little TV my niece and nephew watch in Japan.

I’ll write about getting the house on the market later – I can’t type anymore right now. Geez. Should have written some of this down sooner but there was so much it was daunting. I’m glad its done for now. Caught up.


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Tired, but I gotta write some of this down

March 24, 2010 at 5:11 am (General Life Updates)

So I have been in Japan since Sunday, and it is now Wednesday night. I really need to write some stuff down so that I can remember it, but I’m really not in the mood to write a post tonight with a lot of detail. So for now, I’m going to make a list of stuff and then I’ll try to come back later and flesh out more details.

Friday – picking up P from school early because my mom and I were so worried about the winter storm that was coming in, getting to Monument and then getting to the airport. Then we met them at Borders at Chapel Hills mall where my mom used her credit and her educators discount to get me 4 books for 3.30. Awesome. Then we went to Motherhood in the mall where I was pretty excited to have their X-L pants fit me for two pairs of pants. Then we headed to Monument, me by way of Walmart to get some more snacks for my trip and my Gas-X. 🙂 And a magazine. It was bliss not to have to take the kids to the store, since I sent them in Mom and Dad’s car straight to the house.

We hung out at Mom’s house, me checking my flight every little while to see if it had changed due to all the snow falling, the kids played and then K2 took a nap. We had lunch, then we had dinner. Dad and I left at 5:30 for the airport, and I was tense the whole way there, through the delays for car wrecks near Larkspur and on. Got to the airport a little after 7, where checking my bag luckily didn’t take long. Waiting for my flight was nerve-wracking, but we got boarded on time. Then we sat and left almost an hour late, so I was tense and nervous the whole flight to LA. I read my book to distract myself.

LA – hurried to my terminal by way of shuttle and fast walking and got there about 15 minutes before boarding started, so it worked out great. Got my aisle seat, refused to switch with some woman’s husband (which she was good-natured about) because of being pregnant and needing to use the restroom a lot. Which I figured would force me to actually do the getting-up-every-2-hours thing like I was supposed to, despite my nerves of people looking at me.

The flight was 12.5 hours long. Oh. my. gosh. Did my butt hurt when we landed in Seoul. Flight was fine, used the bathroom a lot, ate my apple, tried to stay hydrated and pee a lot. Tried to move so that my butt wouldn’t hurt too bad. Slept a little, finished my book. Wished I could sleep more. It was long. Watched Surrogates toward the end – it was pretty good. Got  a headache, but it luckily didn’t last the rest of the flight.

In Seoul, the airport wasn’t awake yet since it was like 5 in the morning. I slept on a bench at my gate for an hour, got up to pee, slept another hour. Killed another hour and a half reading my magazine and book.

Last flight was about 2 hours long – not too bad. Had an aisle seat, but there was no one in the window seat so I could spread out a little more and try to baby my sore butt. Still hurt though.

D (my brother that lives here) picked me up at the airport after I got my baggage and went through customs. My suitcase took forever, so I was getting nervous. But then we took off after hugs (T, my other brother visiting, and his girlfriend were there, too, having arrived from Tokyo before me). So here starts the list of activities that I will need to come in and fill in some details for:

Chinese park – pretty pond and lots of fish, some Chinese history from D. He got called in to work and we had to take off. Home to his house, where I was able to shower and change and see his house, which is great.

Some site seeing that night when he got home – a couple of temples, active ones. Very pretty. One with a cave underneath it that is part of the temple. Back to the house, where I fell asleep reading at 7:45 until 7:00 the next morning. Great sleep.

Monday – went to traditional Japanese village where they put on a show of old Japanese culture with a Shisha dog. Village called Ryukyu Mura. Before that, farmer’s market where I saw some cool vegetables that I can’t normally get. Made me want to go to the Asian market in Colo Spgs. Went to the base for grocery shopping. Then the T, D, girlfriend went to a zipline park where they got to zip across the jungle and A (SIL) and I came back to house with kids so their youngest could nap. I hung out and read a book for a few hours. It was nice and peaceful. Ate Brazilian feijoada, chicken wings, rice, fruit salad.

Tuesday – went to beach for snorkeling and beach-time. Panic attacks when I tried to snorkel – managed to breathe just fine, but the flippers made me feel like I didn’t know what I was doing to swim and that if I wanted to stop, i couldn’t. I only snorkeled for maybe 2 minutes after the panic attacks – too much panic still. Didn’t see more than one or two fish due to not moving because of panic. Still enjoyed floating around on air mattress in water and looking for shells to take back for the kids. Changed into and out of swimsuit behind a rock. Didn’t get sunburnt to speak of.

Tuesday night was pedicure night. My toes are so pretty – Japanese flowers on a pink and black background. The massage and foot-soak was great, especially considering we didn’t have time to even change out of our clothes that we wore to the beach. Then we came back and hung out at the house for the rest of the evening.

Today, we went to the beach again. A different beach. More sandy. A and I and the kids went to the beach, while the other three started in the marina around the cove and snorkeled to us. It took them about an hour and a half. Then, D decided that it was shallow enough and tide was high enough in the tide pools there that I could just walk around with the snorkel mask and see some fish without having to panic. So we did that and by the time we were done, I was feeling comfortable enough to float even over some of the deeper tide pools to see the fish. It was great. I think with more practice that I could be pretty comfortable snorkeling in most shallow areas – but really deep I’d have to overcome more panic.

Then we went to a FamilyMart after putting our clothes over out suits and got a bunch of typical Japanese convenience food and ate it at a park before looking at some castle ruins. We drove through a pottery villlage, then came home for showers while D went to get some ahi while we showered and chilled at the house for a couple hours and A got dinner ready. After my shower I relaxed on the bed and ended up taking a short nap.

We had ahi, bokchoy and purple sweet potatoes for dinner tonight. It was great. Now we’re just chilling – everyone has showered and we are watching a movie.

Ok – brief. That’s about it for now. Got lots of plans for the rest of the week. I might not post the rest until I get back.

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Mostly Packed – Anxiety has narrowed down to 2 points

March 18, 2010 at 7:29 pm (General Life Updates)

Got a lot done today, though perhaps not as much as I could have done. I worked out, full Tempo workout. Went to the bookstore and picked out my books only to discover (through a lucky phone call) that my mom has credit and a gift card to Borders. So I had them set my books aside, and I’ll go back with her tomorrow morning. I’ve got the kids packed except for the stuff they have to use tonight and in the morning. I’ve got myself packed except for the same, plus my drying pants and the stuff I will buy tomorrow.

Now, the main things I’m feeling anxious about have narrowed and focused. I’ll try to relax and take it as it comes, because I can’t control these things really.

1) There is a big storm heading our way and I’m worried it will ground my flight out of Denver tomorrow night. Can’t do anything about it if it happens, so I’m trying to let this go.

2) I have GAS!! Oh my gosh – pregnant lady gas as bad as it gets. I SO hope it has subsided by tomorrow night! I don’t want to stink out my poor fellow passengers trapped in a plane! Ugh!! I was hoping my Tempo workout would work it all out this afternoon, and it did some. But I’m still a walking stink bomb. Is this all TMI? Sorry if I’m oversharing, but these are my menial problems. 🙂 Maybe I should detour a little tomorrow and invest in some Gas-X – how does that stuff work anyway.

I’m off to research gas medicine and if pregnant ladies can safely take it……

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Travel Anxiety

March 18, 2010 at 9:42 am (General Life Updates)

So today I am getting really anxious about my trip. Connecting flights, where my seat will be, remembering (and not being too self-conscious) to get up every 2 hours on the long flight to walk around and go to the bathroom. Remembering to drink lots of water, even if it makes me pee more (don’t want any blood clots!!). Boarding passes, finding my way around unfamiliar airports, language barriers. Packing everything today and tomorrow that I need, not forgetting anything. Finding a bag to use as a carry-on since I packed all our little bags and duffels. Pulling the suitcase out of the crawl space. Getting entertainment today (as in, books, etc.). Plugging in my sandisk mp3 player for the first time in ages to make sure it has music on it that I still like – getting batteries for it (wish K hadn’t taken his Zune with him to Utah this last weekend!). Doing the laundry today so that all the kids and my clothes are clean to be packed. Packing clothes for the kids’ week at the grandparents. Making sure the house is left clean and tidy so that there isn’t too much work to be done the day I get back to make it ready to show. Taking back the library books today. Buying some paper for my printer so I can print my boarding pass for my long Asiana flight!

I’ve got more than one list going, to be sure. I’m trying to stay calm, but I can feel the anxiety building. I’m restless, I want to eat stuff. I keep getting up to get something done, and then sitting right back down at the computer because I’m not sure where to start. I did brush my teeth and wash my face and put a bra on, so that’s progress.

I didn’t work out last night, convincing myself that a T-Tapp workout every other day is sufficient and good if I do it for the rest of the pregnancy. Now I have to work out today, and with all that listed above, I’m just not sure its going to happen. But I know (in my head) that if I do, it will help with the worry and calm me down. So hoping to fit that in this afternoon.

I even have an item on one list to add an item to another list. Ugh.

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Looking like a slob, versus “saving” your clothes

March 17, 2010 at 10:06 am (General Life Updates)

Ok – so I have 2 pairs of jeans that fit me. One is maternity and one was just too big before I got pregnant and gained 25 pounds in the first half of the pregnancy.

I have 4 new maternity (not really maternity, but their cut and style will allow them to work great) that my mother purchased me. So far I’ve worn 2 of them, both on a Sunday when I knew I wouldn’t get them dirty. That is also when I’ve worn the new maternity jeans.

For weeks now, I’ve been dressing like a slob at home, and to go out. Workout clothes, some of them stained with paint, tennis shoes, t-shirts (also stained sometimes with paint). I haven’t really cared. But I think I’m thinking about this all wrong….. see case in point.

Today I’ve decided to go visit my mother at her work. She works at a high school, and I need to take her some Mary Kay stuff so she can give it to her co-worker before spring break starts in a few days. Plus, see last post about getting away from the self-cleaning oven.

I know I should wear something decent and look like I’m not a refugee from a painting-work-camp, but I find myself arguing with the idea that I wear the precious few decent looking clothes that fit me because I need to “save” them. For what I ask you? I’m not sure!! I need to start thinking about this from a different perspective, and its proving hard. I’ve been so deep in dirty work for so many weeks, that I keep thinking that if I wear nice stuff, I’m going to ruin it. But the work is tapering off (painting done yesterday!!! oven cleaning itself today!!!), and I need to start “getting dressed” every day so that I’m not a CONSTANT What-Not-to-Wear before disaster.

I know this, but I’m fighting my instinct to “save” my clothes. Is that stupid? I need to just get over it, right? That, and stop gaining weight so that they’ll continue to fit me! It doesn’t help that I have so few clothes that do fit. But good grief, I look awful and it is just no longer acceptable.

Going to get changed right now. From paint-stained shirt and sweats to maternity jeans and cute shirt. Must. push. through. paranoia.

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Oven Cleaning

March 17, 2010 at 9:20 am (General Life Updates)

Today’s main task was cleaning the oven. I wiped out the bottom and started the self-clean mode. It takes 4 hours and 20 minutes and fills the house with a sour smell the entire time. It burns the eyes. So now I’m thinking we should leave the house and go somewhere. Perhaps library, but the kids don’t really make it easy to browse for books in a quiet place. So maybe I could move the task of going to the bookstore (supposed to be tomorrow) to today. And perhaps any tasks that take us upstairs. It is distinctly unpleasant in here right now, and I even have some windows open, garage door open, and the stove fan and living room fan going.

It is Wednesday! Only 3 days (including today) until I leave! Getting more and more nervous and excited!

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March 16, 2010 at 7:44 pm (General Life Updates)


  • Ate 3 square meals, even experimented a little.
  • Had 2 snacks and will have one more before bed.
  • Threw away most of the sugar-infested foods that were lending themselves to binges.
  • Went to the grocery store.
  • Helped P with her homework, including some make-up work for missing yesterday.
  • Painted the baseboards  – last coat! Done painting!! Yay!!
  • Made a new recipe for dinner, and discovered it was a keeper.
  • Swept the main floor.
  • Did the dishes.
  • Hung out outside while the kids played in the warm, beautiful weather
  • **** Worked out!! A full Tempo Intermediate T-Tapp workout, to my max (couldn’t finish a couple of the 10-reps, but I did my best)

Left to accomplish:

  • No binge!!!!
  • Put kids to bed, teeth brushed, bedtime story read, and prayers said.
  • One snack.
  • Shower. Looking forward to a long one after the kids are in bed.
  • Go to bed by 10:30.

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Peanut Sauce

March 16, 2010 at 6:51 pm (Daily Workouts/Eats)

Every time I’ve had peanut sauce on a meal, I’ve loved it. The first time was when I was in high school on a trip the the Model MUN in the Hague. We went to a Thai restaurant and I tried peanut sauce. So good! I don’t have a lot of clear memories of the rest of the meal. My love of peanut butter has only grown and developed over the years, but I’ve never tried to make it myself. I just figured it must be hard! I even like the peanut sauce on the Lean Cuisine meal that has it.

Anyway, tonight I was making brown rice, chicken, and vegetables for dinner, and I thought it would be nice to have a sauce. Hey, peanut sauce! So I looked up some recipes until I found one I thought I could tackle and that I had almost all the ingredients for; I was lacking the soy sauce. So I went and borrowed some from a neighbor (only needed 1/8th of a cup), and set to work.

I got the recipe from allrecipes.com, except I substituted brown sugar for the molasses and cajun seasoning for the cayenne pepper (what I had). I also halved it, knowing it was just the kids and I that would be eating dinner and one of the commenters had remarked about how much it made.

I don’t think this is diet friendly at all, but you don’t need much to give a great flavor. It would be great over noodles, too, I’m sure!

Here’s the link to the recipe I used, because I’m too lazy to retype it. 🙂 Peanut Sauce I

Kid review: P refused to have it on her meal, but when I pleaded with her to have a bite of mine with the chicken and rice, she said it was good. But then she still didn’t want any on her plate. K2 seemed to like it just fine! Scarfed down 1.5 servings. And I just thought it was great!

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Yummy yummy lunch – too hungry to take a picture!

March 16, 2010 at 12:37 pm (Daily Workouts/Eats)

I don’t know how food bloggers do it! I was so anxious to eat my lunch today that even though I had PLANNED to take a picture and post it with this description, I totally forgot when it came out of the oven and smelled and looked so delicious! And before I thought about pictures again, it was gone. So, no picture. Sorry!

Today I had one of my best tortilla pizzas in a long time. I started making tortilla pizzas when I started the Joy Bauer LIFE diet in March of ’09. I substituted low or no fat cream cheese for the sauce since I don’t like tomatoes, and I would measure out everything else except the veggies (cheese, meat). Anyway, I use the low-carb whole wheat tortillas for the crust and since I’ve been off “dieting” since getting pregnant, I use full fat cream cheese and cheese. But I don’t use a lot of either.


  • Tortilla
  • Thin layer of cream cheese, probably a generous tablespoon
  • Cauliflower & broccoli, steamed in microwave with a little garlic salt
  • garbanzo beans, probably about 1/4 cup
  • about 5 chunks of pineapple, cut into quarters
  • Tillamook extra sharp cheddar cheese, about an ounce

So I just spread the toppings out over the cream cheese, veggies, then evenly spread the garbanzo beans, then the pineapple, then a thin layer of Tillamook cheese.

Pop it in the oven on my cooking stone for about 15 minutes, or until the cheese is melted and it looks warmed through, enough so that the tortilla won’t be soggy in the middle from the veggies and pineapple.

Oh, my gosh!! This was so good!! My best one in a long time – I loved the pineapple and chickpeas combo, and the garlic salt on the veggies gave it a great flavor along with some pepper when it was on my plate. I used to always use leftover meat, but I’m loving using beans and having it be more vegetarian. I used the pineapple because it was in the fridge leftover from hawaiian haystacks a few days ago for dinner.

Delicious lunch!

I’ll probably return to low-fat cream cheese and low-fat cheese on this after I’ve had the baby and am trying to lose weight again (not too drastically while nursing).

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Uneventful Monday

March 16, 2010 at 11:06 am (General Life Updates)

My kids were in their pajamas all day yesterday. Yup, it was that kind of day. After K left, I just kind of deflated and I didn’t do much of anything. P and I played with each other’s hair. The kids and I played a little while K2 was awake. We had fun last night dancing to some music while I put laundry away. I did the dishes and fed them dinner. But other than that, I mostly just sat all day. I ate too much, didn’t work out, and just felt generally blah and overwhelmed all day.

After posting on the T-Tapp forums about my woes (oh, woe is me!), I realized I was being a wuss. I didn’t jump into action or anything, but I looked through my list for the week of things I have to get done before going to Japan, and I made a schedule, splitting up the list for the 3 days I have left. Already one item down for today (small grocery trip). This afternoon I’m going to put the last coat on the baseboards since that is the item I’m dreading the most – get it out of the way. Then there are 2 or 3 things for Wednesday and Thursday, and Friday can be spent getting myself and the kids ready to go.

It felt good to come up with a plan of action. I’m also determined to work out this afternoon. Night just isn’t working (again). I threw away the rest of the Smarties left over from Sunday’s treats for my lesson (I know that I bought too many on purpose, but the rest of the damage is in the garbage). The ice cream is gone, there are cookies. I’m still working on throwing those away – today I feel I can resist them so I keep thinking I’ll keep them for the kids. But they don’t really need them! So….. I’ll go throw them away now……  ok I’m back. Cookies in the garbage.

K2 and I went to the store this morning while P is at school and got some stuff for the next few days. Got some bananas and apples, some snacks for my trip (Larabars and Think Thin & Luna protein bars), some cauliflower and broccoli for the 3 dinners we have. And lunches. Some granola bars and fruit snacks for the kids, mostly to stow in the car for when we’re out and about and need a snack. Got some more oatmeal, and decided to get some of the old-fashioned oats to try since K’s not around and the rest of us like the chewier texture. Also got enough yogurts for the kids and I to have one a day until we leave.

So there is officially nothing to binge on now (though you know if you’re determined there’s always something). K2 and I will get P shortly, and then it will be lunch, workout, baseboards, K2 will be napping, homework, dinner, hang out time, bedtime (for me and the kids – I want to be in bed by 10:30 at the latest).

Anyway, feeling better today now that the sadness of K leaving is less fresh and I’m feeling sick of all the sugar I’ve been consuming the last few days.

Gotta go get P….

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