Almost Couldn’t Find My Blog to Make an Entry

October 14, 2015 at 5:20 pm (General Life Updates)

So, I got a new laptop that my Uncle D (who isn’t really my uncle, but he’s like family so to be respectful I call he and his wife by Aunt and Uncle) bought off ebay and gave/sold to my dad so my dad to give to me. I’m not really sure on the logistics of the exchange, and I didn’t ask too many questions because I was just excited about the laptop. It is a used HP business laptop and this is really the first time I’ve used it since my dad gave it to me on Saturday when they were here. It is now Wednesday, and really I shouldn’t be starting this entry now because I need to feed the kids, nurse the baby, and leave to take K2 to scouts all within the next 40 minutes. In case you can’t tell, I haven’t thought this out too well.

With that typed out, I’ve got to go. I’ll be back because typing on this laptop keyboard is way easier than my regular keyboard.


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Christmas is Almost Here

December 16, 2014 at 2:49 pm (General Life Updates, Weight Loss)

First off, I remembered 4th of July of this year. In my last post I said I didn’t know what we’d done. We went to Kansas! We were there for 3 or 4 days visiting my brother and his family. My parents came, too. We had a great time! We hung out at their house, had great food, as always. That’s kind of my brother and his wife’s MO – great food. Homemade, not out to eat. We went out to eat for a couple lunches, but most awesome meals were at their house. We played in their pool, saw a few sights, and went to an amazing fireworks show at a nearby park. The best I’ve seen in years. And each night we were there, people were setting off amazing fireworks in the streets in front of their houses. Pretty awesome place. Humid. Mosquitoes. But still awesome. I was thinking about my liposuction consultation from a couple days before the trip – thinking about it almost the whole weekend. Still want it. Just don’t know if I have the guts, or if I can willfully send our family into a debt that big for something so vain.

Thanksgiving a couple weeks ago was fun. We went down to K’s family’s house and had fun hanging out Tuesday and Wednesday, with the big meal on Wednesday afternoon. Wed morning, we went to Peterson AFB and played racquetball, K, his mom, and my SIL L. It was really fun! I kinda sucked but I’d never played before so I guess I did ok. Thursday morning we headed up to my parent’s house where we had another big meal and some great time with Aunt and Uncle D and my parents. K left Thursday evening, taking the kids back down to his mom’s to spend time with cousins while I stayed with me parents for 2 days with no kids. Blissful. Mom and I went swimming at the AFA then went out Friday afternoon to see if any of the Black Friday deals were still available. We had a good time and were out almost all day. Saturday afternoon we went to the outlets at Castlerock and then I went and got the kids and drove home after dinner at my parents’ house.

So basically same-o same-o the past few weeks as Christmas comes on. K2’s been sick the last week and today, first with a cold then with a stomach bug. Hopefully, he’ll be able to go back to school tomorrow. 3 more days of school after today, then Christmas break. I teach 5 more Zumba classes this year, then I have a sub for the last two classes and then we’re in 2015. Crazy. I’m possibly going to have the opportunity to teach Monday nights in Platteville as well as Wednesdays – and I just don’t know if I want to. We might try and lure another Zumba instructor that needs some training wheels to Platteville for Mondays. Don’t know if I can handle 4 night classes and one weekend class without going crazy. I want to take it and claim, “Mine, mine, mine.” But I don’t think that’s what’s best for my family.

Trying to decide what crafts/goodies to make for the holiday to give away. I probably won’t do anything before next week. The kids are considering celebrating Friday morning the 26th when K is off work instead of on the 25th while he’s at work. We shall see.

A good friend of mine asked me to help her be more accountable on her get-healthy journey. But I’m not sure I’m doing her any good just texting her. We were going to get together to work out, and then both had sick kids so had to postpone and we haven’t rescheduled. She also wants me to help her with her blog about getting back into her wedding dress (or that size). But I’m not sure how much input I would have other than editing the ideas she has. I want to help. But I’m already feeling kind of overwhelmed. Mostly because I don’t manage my time well at all and go back to bed while D is at school almost every day. That’s 2 hours lost each morning and my day doesn’t really get going until almost midday after picking her up, getting something to eat, getting showered and dressed. Gotta work on that. I’m considering a goal for January to try and go to bed by 10:30 every night for 30 days straight and see how it makes a difference in my life. Also need to find a challenge to do with my Zumba class up north.

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So Much has happened, there’s not way to record it all

August 14, 2013 at 6:17 pm (General Life Updates)

But I’m going to do one of those bullet lists to try and at least preserve some dates in my memory, hopefully for further recording of details later.

1) This summer has gone by crazy fast. 3 almost-week-long trips to Colorado Springs for niece’s baptism, then birthday party, then K’s family reunion. All three trips fraught with drama and fun. The last trip, I managed to stick to my dietary guns and actually lost 5 pounds while I was there. That was in mid-July and I haven’t managed to lose any weight that I’ve kept off since then. More about that later.

2) Had another miscarriage in June. June 12, 2013 to be precise. I started bleeding on Tuesday, went to the doctor, found the bad news confirmed on the ultrasound. Went back to doctor Wednesday (12th) to check some other things, and continued to bleed on and off during the interim. Wednesday night, I passed what I believe was the baby, and kinda freaked out. Sobbing uncontrollably and what-not. Sobbed into Keith’s arms for a while. Then went down to the Springs again for one of those trips and had to pass on the 5K I was signed up for (though I went and picked up my shirt with my mom, who offered to walk it with me and I opted out). It was a bad time mentally and emotionally for me, obviously. But for once, my body handled the crisis by bleeding and passing the fetus and I was relieved to not have to have surgery.

3) Our church calling was changed a few months ago, and K and I now team-teach the 12-13 year old Sunday School class. A mixture of boys and girls, about 9-11 total on any given Sunday. I usually teach when K is working, and he teaches when he’s not working, which works out 50/50.

4) K got a new job with Xtreme Drilling in April. He works on a rig as a floorhand now. He has a set schedule of twelve 7-hour shifts, then a week off. Then his schedule flips (if he worked days, he then works nights) for 7 more shifts. Then a week off. So in any given month, he works 2 weeks out of 4, one week of nights and one week of days, and has 2 weeks off. This gives him 2 Sundays a month, hence the teaching schedule. He really likes it, and we both really appreciate the schedule, unlike his last job that was on-call, and not consistent with the hours.

5) I’m, as always, striving to lose weight amidst all this. At the end of last year, I lost my way with this a little bit. And from October to March of this year I gained back about 35-40 of the 55 pounds I had lost. With the other miscarriage derailing me again, I’ve managed to get off about 5 or so pounds of that. I teach Toning Tuesdays at the church in Johnstown, a class that anyone is welcome to come to. Just some women working out together in the gym, each at their own level. Good times. This morning, about 4 of us started a running group on Wednesday mornings at 6:00 AM (SO NOT MY STYLE SO EARLY). We started here in Platteville and will rotate around the 3 towns where we all live. It was fun! I hope we can continue to be consistent with it, and hopefully others will be able to join us sometimes. I’m eating a lot of whole foods and produce, and trying to avoid sugary foods or foods with little nutritional value. I had been snacking way too much at night and decided it was partially my sleeping/waking up schedule over the summer that was affecting my control, and also not eating enough early enough in the day such that I lost control in the late afternoons/evenings and pigged out to compensate. I hit my workouts pretty hard, but I also decided I need to up my cardio, so I’m working on that this week.

6) The kids are great. D is 3 now and just as sassy as can be. P is almost 9 starting 4th grade, and K2 will be 6 in October and is starting kindergarten tomorrow (he’s so excited!). Now that K2 will be in full-day school with P, I’ll be taking D to the library for as many story-time, craft days as I can, which should be about 2-3 times a week. She’s recently been potty-trained and is doing really well. Her 4th week of being potty-trained was rough. She’d basically had it down with almost no accidents in the first 3 weeks, even at night. And then the 4th week she had quite a few accidents, sometimes multiples in a day. I think she was trying to figure out how long she could hold it, and I was still figuring out the signs of her trying to hold it. We seem to be back on track now (phew!) with that. P is so pretty and grown-up, but also all drama and attitude. Her teeth are wacky-doo-dee and will need a lot of help so I’m hoping to get an orthodontic referral at her next dentist appointment in a couple weeks. P is usually an amazing help to me, mothering K2 (much to his annoyance) and D, and being cheerful about helping me out with taking care of them. With my lazy summer (I don’t know if it was the miscarriage or what but I got almost nothing done this summer), she has helped get them so many breakfasts and lunches. K2 is a loving bundle of trouble. He loves to give hugs and make people laugh, but he’s also always in others’ personal spaces and accidentally hurting people when he gets to excited and rough with them (usually his sisters). He loves his Legos and is so good at following the instruction pamphlets that come with these kits they sell these days.

My goal is to write down at least once a week something that each of them has done that I want to remember. Unfortunately, I can’t remember anything right now, so I’m hoping that with this goal in mind, I can pay better attention.

My sister is pregnant with her 5th. I can’t decide if I’m even willing to try again. We shall see.

over and out for now

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Time flies whether you’re having fun or not

January 10, 2013 at 5:14 pm (General Life Updates)

So much has happened in the past 6 months, and at the same time nothing has changed. Basics of life: K still has sporadic hours but is making a pretty good living. He’s trying to find a different job since he’s sick of the inconsistency, but who knows what will happen. The kids are in school. And I’m still here, still trying to be and do my best.

Details, at least a few of them:

I did run the Platteville 5K on Harvest Daze. I got my best time ever, at somewhere around 35:22. I also got a medal, but since I didn’t stick around to receive it I didn’t find out about it until weeks later, and by then I could pick it up, but no one knew what it was for exactly. My division, or something since I know I didn’t win the race overall, nor was I the first female over the finish. Harvest Daze was a wonderful day. My parents did come. We went from the race to the all-you-can-eat breakfast at the VFW, to the fair at the park (booths and bouncy castles and crafts for the kids). It was really hot, and fun to see how many people we know around here this year. My parents were enchanted with the old-school small-town feel of the festivities. In the afternoon we hung at the house for a couple hours (got a part for my Dad’s vehicle), and then went to the live music down the street to watch the kids dance and run around, other people get drunk, and then the wonderful fireworks after dark. All in all, it was a fabulous day.

P is doing well in school. She has to read 30 minutes, 5 times a week, and write some stuff down to show she did it. The details were confusing at the beginning of the year, but she’s got the hang of it now. I just have to make sure her books aren’t too easy or too hard, but that’s hard to regulate since she likes to choose on her own. Right now she really wants a set of kids’ non-fiction books about world disasters called “I Survived”. For example, “I Survived 9/11” or “I Survived Pearl Harbor”. I hope I can get them for her – it will be the first time I’ve ever ordered from the numerous book order forms that come home with the kids. She is learning her multiplication tables, and seems excited about it. She’s always trying to quiz K2 on math, and he’s kinda clueless so it doesn’t usually go well. She seems to have good friends and enjoy school for the most part, though she complains when its time to go back after our 3-day weekends, especially if it was a good weekend. She is in Activity Days at church and is trying to pass off the Articles of Faith so she can get her ears pierced. She loves AD and gets very excited to go every other Tuesday. I wish I could say the same. For me, it means I’m driving 3-4 girls to the church where I have to just hang out for an hour since its not worth the 10 minutes I’d get to spend at home if I made the drive while I’m waiting. Sometimes I’ve worked out, sometimes I’ve hidden in a room and read on my Kindle. Sometimes I chat with other moms. It just means that night’s particularly hectic. This coming Tuesday, I’ll have to make the trip with my two little ones since K will be working, and that should be interesting. P has got most of her front permanent teeth, and their still a hot mess. I need to take her in and see what we should expect for braces, cuz she’s going to need them for sure. Her hair is much longer and we still haven’t gotten it cut; she says she still wants to, so I’m hoping I’ll be able to take her this weekend.

K2 is still much the same. Wonderful and terrible at the same time. Loves and plays and is a joy. And still has trouble staying out of his sisters’ space and responding appropriately to “No” and “Stop”. But he does great at school, and is supposedly often a big helper with the younger children. His teachers love him, other kids’ parents love him, his friends love him. He can be a bit bossy, but mostly he is a star pupil. He’ll be one of the oldest kids in kindergarten next year, and I worry about that. But I think in the long run it will be fine. He broke his arm December 11th (part of the December from hell that I will sum up). It is a buckle fracture in his left arm right above the wrist. Simple enough supposedly to heal from. He has a blue cast that he’s used to now; it comes off in 4 days. He’s excited to see how skinny his arm is going to be. Strange, what kids get psyched about. The night it happened, he was running pell mell across the living room, and he stumbled and fell wrist-first into the hard part of the couch. He kept crying and crying while I poked at it to try and figure out if something was broken, but it wasn’t until my neighbor/good friend came over that she thought to try and flip is arm over and look at the inside/under side, where there was a big bulge. I immediately went to get my shoes on. She took D home with her and I went to the Children’s Hospital, where K was able to meet me coming off a shift (thank goodness). We are still waiting for the bills from all that. Along with all the other bills from December. Because……

December 6th I had another D&C with another miscarriage. I was about 12 weeks along when I started bleeding. It was a Sunday morning at about 3 in the morning when I discovered it, and I bled all day Sunday. Monday morning, my friend’s (same friend) kids watched my kids while she took me to the ER. Sure enough, baby had stopped growing and there was no blood flow or heartbeat. Tuesday, I saw a regular doctor and we scheduled the D&C for Thursday December 6th at 4 in the afternoon. I’ve always had my D&C’s in the early morning so that was different for me. I still remember lots of details about the day, but I don’t think they’re important. K was able to be with me, which was a nice surprise because I planned the whole thing assuming I’d be on my own for the first time since he was on his long week at work. My friend really stepped up and helped me a lot over the next few days. Going to the hospital with K2 for his broken arm was the first time I left the house since my surgery. I am sad about the baby, and over the course of it all (in Sept I thought I was pregnant and was stressed out, then I wasn’t, then I was disappointed, then I was pregnant, then I miscarried) I gained about 25 pounds. So I definitely have work to do, but I haven’t been able to make myself get started again yet. I eat ok, but I don’t eat great. And I’ve been baking a lot, whenever the fancy strikes me. Which lately has been weirdly almost every day.

Along with miscarriage, surgery, broken little-boy arm in December, our water backed up 3 different times. The first time flooded the basement. The other times, we caught it soon enough to keep the water from flooding, but each time we went for hours without being able to use the water while we waited for the plumbing companies to come. It is a root problem and needs to be fixed but the owners of the house have not decided to do it yet. So each day I wonder if this is the day that it will back up again. We’ve been fine since about 3 days before Christmas, when our property manager brought me some copper sulfate and had me flush it down the toilet to try and kill the problem roots. He’s going to schedule preventative snakings, but for a while there they were coming within days of each other.

Along with all that, we all got sick the 2 weeks before Christmas. Just as I was recovering from the D&C, I got the nastiest flu/cold I think I’ve ever had as an adult. Coughing, congestion, etc., and a killer fever of at least 102 that lasted almost a week. We were kind of all the walking-miserable. We were barely recovered enough to prepare for Christmas and kind of enjoy it. The kids got it, but with them their fever lasted 2-3 days and they didn’t seem as miserable as I felt, at least if I gave them medicine to bring their fever down. I felt like curling into a ball and staying that way forever. The mental place I was in didn’t help. I was depressed and overwhelmed with everything that had happened added to what was supposed to be a festive season.

I’m doing a little better now. Physically, I have a little phlegm to cough up occasionally, but I’m find. Emotionally, I’ve come to terms with my 3rd miscarriage, but I haven’t decided yet if I have it in me to try one more time. I started working out again, but I haven’t really gone gung-ho because I’m still eating pretty much whatever I want, & it seems like hard, 6-day-a-week workouts would be a wasted effort when nutritionally I’m negating them. I went to Zumba Monday night and that was nice to get back to since its been over a month. But I couldn’t go last night. Tomorrow morning is Fit Friday at the church, an assignment I was asked to lead when word spread around the ward about my fitness efforts and how I like to train people. We had just really gotten going when December Hell hit for me, so I was out of commission for a while. Last Friday we had class and we did a basic circuit involving pushups, situps, squats, lunges, jumping jacks, and a wall-sit. I overdid it a bit and could barely walk on Saturday. But the annoying part is I’ve diagnosed myself with a “rib out” from that workout that is affecting everything. It hurts to breathe deeply below my right shoulder blade on my back. Coughing the little that I’m coughing now hurts worse than when all my muscles were strained from constant coughing. Just in that one spot. It gets better, and then I move wrong and its all bad again. I wish I had the money to go see a chiropractor that I trust, but I don’t know one in the area. Anyway, tomorrow we have class again, and this time we’re going to try a Firm video to use the steps that the church owns there at the building. I’m not excited about it – I watched the video and I find the lead-lady annoying and the workout boring, but maybe I’ll feel differently about it when I’m actually doing it. Its worth trying once. Next week, I think we’ll do T-Tapp, and then we’ll do Zumba again (our first class I taught Zumba). I want to get Zumba certified, and was thinking about doing it at the January class here in Denver and the miscarriage put me off that goal. So I need to renew my enthusiasm and look for the next class.

My calling at church since mid-summer is teaching the 7-turning-8 year olds. Up until a couple weeks ago, that included my daughter P. Now I have 8 new little squirmy kids that have just graduated from junior primary to senior. Getting them to adhere to my “we’re–not-sunbeams-and-can-sit-like-big-kids” motto is going to be a long haul, especially with the little deaf boy and another boy that seems to think his chair is a jungle gym. That reminds me I need to look at my lesson for Sunday. It keeps sneaking up on me.

In the immediate stuff going on, my good friend (same friend) had her baby on Friday the 4th, and her little 9.5 lb baby almost immediately got an infection and went septic. Now, this lady has 7 other kids. So I’ve stepped in and have been watching them as much as I can. In other words, its been chaos around here a lot. I like her kids (unusual for me) so its been OK, but at the same time, I’m about done. I think they’ll be spending the evening at home so that’s kind of a relief. Tomorrow night, I have another friend’s kid spending the night and Saturday here, and I’m dreading that because I DON’T like her kids. Because I’m an evil person. Oh, well. Kids usually aren’t my thing, and hers have issues. LOTS of issues. But she needs help, so I’ll just treat her (the extra) like I would treat mine and if she acts out, she’ll spend the day alone in a constant time-out corner. Apparently I’ll have that same child the 24th overnight and maybe the 25th overnight after school since her mom has to make a trip to go to court about her ex’s child support payments in UT. I’m glad I can help, I just wished I liked the child, so I could not dread the time, and so I could stop feeling guilty. Maybe I need to go to therapy as much as the child does.

Hopefully, my first friend’s baby will be able to come home from the hospital next week so there will only be a few more days of this madness. I can handle it, I’m just running a little short on patience for the children’s nonsense. And all children have nonsense. And when there’s 10 in the same house (her 7, my 3) there’s a lot of nonsense.

That about catches me up on journaling  though its a pathetic effort when it only happens twice a year. Need to do better. I’m out.

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So much to say

May 6, 2012 at 3:57 pm (General Life Updates)

I have so much to say. And I have a rambling problem. So in the interest of remembering all the stuff I need to record because of my 4 month lapse in posting, I will make a list of things I”d like to write down so I remember them.

**Freeze Your Buns Off 5K – Feb 11, 2012 in Castle Rock, CO. Time spent with parents and kids, and a snow storm, but good running weather. Healthy Living Expo. Time (after no real prep at all) 43:29.

**Winning a giveaway for free treatment at a Naturopath doctor’s office in Castle Rock as a result of raffle at Expo. Appointment March 15, 2012. And a wonderful Thursday afternoon, Friday and Saturday morning spent on my own with my mom and NO KIDS. A mini-vacation.

April Conference trip to Utah. Visited with L, went to dinner with her. It was so fun. First time she and I have ever shared intimate talk about our relationships with our spouses. It was fun to get her input and opinion about some of the issues K and I have sometimes and her ideas to help me. Visited a lot with my bfE – its always so great to spend time with her. We briefly visited her sister and had lunch with my other friend Elz, whom neither of us had seen in years, though I’d seen her more recently than bfE had. We went to Elz’s new house (its beautiful), met her toddler and hung out with her and her hubby. It was a grand time. So much laughing. Got to see my brother T and his wife J, whom I hadn’t seen since their wedding in September.

**D’s growth. The words she has now at 21 months: Mama, Dada, bowl (sounds like bow), apple (abba), No, cheese/teeth/please are all said “eees”, move sounds like “moooo”, she does animal sounds for goat, elephant, lion, dog, cat, cow, owl, pig, and maybe more.

K2’s black eye – given graciously by D on Friday May 4. Bloody noses ensued. Poor boy.

**May Day 5K on May 5, 2012 in Ft. Lupton. Time: 37:21. Parents visited from Friday night on to go to race with us (kids and I) and then help me plant my first garden ever.

The garden, plans for the yard’s improvements. Made a map cuz we used sticks stuck in the ground to mark the mounds and beginnings and ends of rows. Planted corn, watermelon, zucchini, summer squash, cantaloupe, carrots, spinach, green beans, tomatoes. So exciting!! Gotta make sure I do the work.

K’s schedule these days – 15 on/6 off. Hoping to go to 12-hour shifts soon. Plans for getting out of debt.

Enrollment of preschool for K2. My Friends and Me – have to fill out application and get it in this coming week. School’s out May 24.

Planning to go camping with my parents in June down south in the Black Canyon of the Gunnison.

Editing work for friend DP. Finished Part 1 of the book and have done multiple transcription projects. He’s paying me $15/hour. Wish he had friends that could use the same help. Have a transcription waiting for me now that is 33 pages long. It will be a long one.

Weight loss progress and hopes/plans. 192 right now. Goal: 155. Hope to buy an incentive reward when I get under 190, 180, etc. Kindle Fire when I reach goal (or other notepad)

Friends – A goes to Zumba with me, lets my kids play at her house with her kids a LOT, has watched the kids for our dates, and is fun to talk to. J takes walks with me, and her kids play with mine sometimes. Talked to H at church today, got to know her a little better, we might go rollerblading sometime soon. I hope that actually pans out cuz it would be awesome. She’s also the only person I’ve ever met that runs about a 12 minute mile like me, though she goes for a lot longer distances than I do. Have met some more people at church – feeling a little more outgoing now that I’m matching up some names with some faces.

Cooked dinner for the C’s here in Platteville a couple times. Was fun, if stressful to make two meals, because I experimented both times and both time they loved the meals (NOT LASAGNA) that I brought them. Its fun when I make stuff up and it turns out yummy. Makes me feel like a real cook. Got a Ninja about 3 weeks ago. Love it for smoothies. Made banana ice cream awesomely. Also did pretty good on green pancakes, think with some adjustments in method, will do better next time.

Went swimming April 20 with A and her kids. D was so scared at first – after about 40 minutes she finally started to enjoy herself. K2 and P had a blast, especially once they realized vests would hold them up. Went to Carbon Valley Rec Center. Loved the lazy river. Hope to go again on K’s 6-day or sooner.

I probably won’t expound on some of these things. Only a few warrant their own posts. But I wanted to get it down since so much has happened in the last four months and I haven’t been recording it. I’m sure that’s something I’ll regret one day. More details about D’s emerging personality, especially since I haven’t been taking many pictures at all. And she’s so beautiful. I’m thinking if I could just guarantee that it would be another boy to balance us out, I MIGHT consider having another baby. I just can’t decide though since the gender decision isn’t up to me.

Anyway, I’ve put a star by the ones I want to write posts about before I forget. We’ll see if I actually do it.

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No Plan. Again.

December 7, 2011 at 11:59 am (General Life Updates)

Its a good thing I don’t consider myself a blogger. Cuz geez. But I’ve found myself saying a few times over the last few months that I’d have to refer to my journal (or blog) in order to remember when the kids did certain things in their development. So I better make a little bit of effort to document some of D’s development or I won’t know anything to compare if we have more or to remember her craziness.

She is 16 months old now and just as much trouble as she could possible be. She walks/runs everywhere. Climbs on everything. Goes for the computer mouse, the cell phones, the TV remotes whenever given a chance. She has a killer grip and screams her head off when you take away something if she decides to hang on. Otherwise, she runs away and drops the offending item on her way to try to head you off. She has her four teeth on top and bottom in the front, and then a molar on top and bottom both sides in the back. She makes some crazy faces and has a few words. Namely – Doh! (meaning boo), Uh-oh, Ma (which I don’t think is Ma, just more a demanding term), SSSS (meaning SH, and she puts her finger over her mouth classic shh style, sometimes sticking her finger under her upper lip. She loves to hold dolls and teddy bears and making smacking kissing noises. She is a beautiful slightly reddish blonde, but her hair’s not coming in very fast.

I started writing this post yesterday. Last night, D had an accident involving her mouth. Seems like my kids always hurt their mouths. She was sitting on her little kid couch (the unfolding kind) and she had a toothbrush she was playing with. Well, with wonderful luck, when she fell off the couch, she had the toothbrush in her mouth and managed to jab it into the back of her mouth right next to her throat. I didn’t realize she was bleeding until I’d been holding her while she screamed and she lifted her head & I saw the blood dripping all over both of us. So then I spent the next 20 minutes trying to pry open her mouth and shine a flashlight in it at the same time to make sure the bleeding stopped and it didn’t look like something I needed to take her in for. I finally got a glimpse of the wound, and I think it will heal on its own, but it was an awful 30 minutes. She woke up every 2 hours all night long, and it was harder than normal to get her back to sleep. Today she seems fine, thank goodness.

A couple weeks ago, P had a mouth accident. Getting up after being put to bed, she went to get some books to read with her flashlight and slipped going back to bed on the painted concrete floor in the playroom. Somehow, she managed to ONLY land on her upper front teeth/lip. We still can’t figure out how she didn’t hit her chin or put her hands out. Anyway, her screaming, blood-gushing arrival at the top of the stairs, cupping her hand under hurt bloody maw will forever be etched in my head. Her two new permanent teeth that were just peaking through & the two baby teeth on both sides were surrounded by a bloody swollen mass of gum, and we didn’t know if she’d damaged or moved the permanent teeth. The dentist said she was ok a couple days later after an x-ray, but her smile still isn’t the same. The two permanent teeth are much farther out, more than I think they’d be if she hadn’t smashed them. Her main concerns that night as she sobbed & sucked on a popsicle were that she wouldn’t be pretty anymore and that kids would make fun of her. We let her stay home on Tuesday (it happened Monday night), and Thursday I took her to the dentist, since they’d advised me that it might hurt less to wait a couple days.

This is all reminiscent of K2’s accident against the back of P’s head a couple years ago when her head bashed in his front teeth. Literally. I had to move them back into place since they were aimed back into his mouth. I think I wrote about that at the time. I should check and make sure.

Anyway, K2 is at story time this time. I was grateful that K got home from work at 2:30 AM so that I’d have a car this morning. Its been too cold and snowy to walk K2 to the library for story time, so he’s missed a few of them. Last night, we had to walk P to dance class down the street at the rec center, and it was a miserable walk. We all bundled up, and I pulled D in the wagon. We walked down the middle of the street since not all the sidewalks are shoveled, and my coat froze so that it made those crinkly noises every time I moved. On the happy side, I was worried that our walk down to pick her up would be just the wrong timing to burn the rice, but it turned out perfectly. I made split peas, sausage, carrots stew-like mixture which we had over brown rice. It was one of my better concoctions ever – I enjoyed it immensely and the kids seemed to as well. D even let me feed it to her, which was a blessing since she objects usually when she can’t eat dinner herself.

I am going stir-crazy with no car. And then when I do have a car at my disposal when K’s home, I can’t figure out where to go. Its a sad thing. I have been depressed and not doing well on my diet or exercise ever since Thanksgiving. I was so discouraged when the 10 pounds that I lost the 2 weeks before Thanksgiving – 5 of it came back in the 2 days we were in CS. I exercised both days, including T-day morning. And I still gained 5 pounds. Which took me back up over 200 pounds (I’d barely gotten under). That combined with seeing pictures of myself at my SIL’s wedding on Oct 14 really bummed me out. How come all the pictures taken of me are from below my chin – not a good look for someone trying to lose the DOUBLE chin. Anyway, I’ve been kind of a slug-eating-machine since then. I think I’m about where I was right after Thanksgiving weight-wise. I’m trying to re-motivate myself with a new goal and struggling to find one that inspires me. Monday night, I went to Zumba 20 minutes late because I felt guilty for leaving K right after he got home from work, and I didn’t feel like I “deserved” to go. I’d made dinner but I didn’t want any, and he’d have to feed the kids on his own. Anyway, he got off the phone with his mom at 6:45 (Z starts at 6:30) and convinced me to go. I got ready so fast, went to the last 35 minutes of class and then sped out of there cuz I didn’t want to talk to anyone, afraid I’d cry to practical strangers if anyone asked me what was wrong with me.

Yesterday I did a little better and managed to eat pretty well (circumspectly) and I did a full T-Tapp workout. I’ve managed to keep the kitchen clean through my blues, but the rest of the house has suffered. The bathrooms need to be scrubbed, the laundry has piled up, and everything is dusty. My room is a mess. Today, K is eligible for work at noon, so there’s a chance he’ll still be here and I can go to Zumba tonight, but there’s also a good chance he’ll be gone again by then and I’ll need to do some other exercise. But if I leave the other thing until tonight, I’ll be too tired. So I have to predict this afternoon what my chances of Zumba are and if I don’t think I’ll get to go I need to run or something. I’m wearing my wedding ring. It goes on, but it leaves a muffin top on my finger. But I figure if I’m wearing it and its a little uncomfortable it will remind me to drink water, not eat like a glutton, and work out. That’s the idea, anyway.

And Christmas? Yeah, not ready as usual. Once again, it is here and I don’t have a plan. EVERY YEAR, I swear next year I’m going to be prepared with a plan and not leave everything till the last minute willy-nilly. Riiiiighhht. We’ll hopefully acquire a tree next Monday or Tuesday on K’s next days off, so I probably won’t put out any decorations till then, though I have them out downstairs.

D is moaning and groaning at me. She’s bored without K2 here and with me typing on the computer. Her mouth probably hurts, but really she’s usually ornery, so its hard to tell.

Well, that’s the update, such as it is. I haven’t written anything about my brother’s wedding in the end of Sept, or my SIL’s wedding in October. I should do that.

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Summer Over Already

August 11, 2011 at 2:56 pm (Daily Workouts/Eats, General Life Updates, Weight Loss)

This post is long overdue. Sheesh. Part of the problem is, I’m rarely sitting at the computer these days when the kids aren’t bugging me for the screen back for Netflix. Either that, or we’re on the go. So let me see if I can recap the last month or so with some details that will be valuable looking back on the memories in a few years.

1) D started walking for real about the middle of July. She is now pretty awesome at it. For the first couple weeks, she was having to pull herself up and then she’d take off, but soon she developed the ability to stand up on her own without furniture or a person. She is trying to get into everything these days, since she can now see the tops of the desk, the end tables, some dressers, etc. She likes to pull out the plastic-ware in the kitchen, and she loves for her brother and sister to chase her and play with her. She is thinning out, and is still tall for her age. She’s wearing 18-month clothes, and she just turned 1 last week. For her birthday (not that she cared), we went to Casa Bonita in Denver and had a grand ol’ time in the arcade after our dinner. She was strapped to me the whole time in a sling (she would have been trampled if I’d let her walk around), and she had a great time people-watching. P & K2 had a blast playing ski-ball, racing games, stomp the spider games (kinda like a dancing game), and catch-the-popcorn. We had planned on getting K2 and D’s cartoons done, but the guy doing the cartoons wasn’t good, and we’ve already fallen victim to that waste-of-money. We then came home and sang to her and had a jello-cake with cool whip on it, which she had a good time making a royal mess of. It was a great family day, and now my baby is 1 year old.

2) Going back a little further, the last week of July was my family’s first reunion at my parents’ house. There were 24 of us in all, including the babies, all using their bathrooms and camped out around the house (in AND out – K and I slept with D out in the driveway in a borrowed trailer so she’d have a quiet place to have her porta-crib). It was the first time we’d all been together in 12 years, and was the first time for some of us to meet the others’ newest children. The youngest was my sister’s 4th, a girl about 4 weeks old. Anyway, it was a blast!! We didn’t do anything too fancy. One day we went to the park, played frisbee, ran around, had a picnic lunch from the grocery deli. Then 2 of my SIL’s and I went grocery shopping for the week for the all the wonderful meals my newest (by 6 years) SIL had planned for us. We watched movies, but not many. The guys had a night out where they went to play pool and apparently got so slap-happy that people probably THOUGHT they were drinking.

We went to Manitou and had hotdogs at the Vienna Sausage place, and we climbed Helen Hunt Falls. We hung out at the mall, where K2 had a momentous occasion from an upset tummy that caused him to poop himself right there in Borders. Yeah, that was fun. Worse for K cuz he had to take him in the bathroom and get him clean enough to put on the clothes I bought for him off the clearance rack in JCPenney’s. We had a day when we played volleyball in the backyard while the kids played in a kiddie pool and ran through the sprinklers, and then later in the day they played with chalk, got it wet, and decided to paint their bodies in wet chalk. We have pictures. I think I was inside painting my nails when that started, but I was out there when we hosed them down.

The ladies had a night out, where all we could think to do was go to Coldstone. It was good, and so was the company, but I don’t think we had as much fun as the guys did when they went out. 🙂

One day we all split up and went different directions. For us, that day was for visiting K’s family in the south end. That was a nice day, too. Low-key and relaxing, other than D not getting a nap that day.

I went running 3 times, once with my sister and SIL, which was fun. I felt this was necessary (actually wished I’d gotten more runs in) cuz one of the main activities all week long, was COOKING together. We had Brazilian night, Thai night, Indian night, and Korean night. We had simple lunches and fancy lunches. We had french toast, cottage cheese pancakes (my morning), regular pancakes, tons of fruit salads, breakfast casseroles, and leftovers. We cooked a LOT. And it was awesome. I learned some stuff from my SIL, who has lived in Japan for 4 years now with my bro and has learned to cook a lot of asian foods. We had avocado shakes, which I haven’t had since I came back from Brazil. The food really was the focus and highlight of the week, at least for me. For the most part, I managed to not be a complete glutton, though.

It was hard to leave, knowing we won’t see everyone for a while. But, my youngest brother got engaged that week to the girlfriend he brought for all of us to meet, and his wedding is Sept 30, so hopefully we’ll see most everyone then. My sister was on her way to Florida for her husband’s new job, my brother was on his way to Idaho for his schooling (he’s an AF pilot, but going back to school for EE). And then there’s my bro in Georgia and us here. But it was also good to come home and return to a normal routine – which includes for me – weight loss.

3) P got a new bike right before we left for the reunion. It is a 20-incher and is almost too big for her, but she’s mastered it beautifully. With her off her little 12-inch bike (finally!), K2 has taken it over. We put back on the training wheels, and I’ve never seen him so focused or determined as when he figured out how to ride it. We have been enjoying more bike rides as a family, since we also got our grown-up bikes back right before the reunion, too. We want to get K2 his own bike, with boy colors, but for now he’s been pretty happy riding P’s old pink one. If we can’t find the budget for a bike for him soon, I’ll be spray painting the pink one.

4) Weight loss- for the 2.5 weeks before the reunion, I only lost those pounds I mentioned in my last post. I stuck at 230, and my body wasn’t giving it up. I started taking fiber and trying to detox on the suggestion of a friend, and it wasn’t working, apparently because I wasn’t taking enough fiber. During the reunion, I tried to exercise moderation but I didn’t deprive myself of much. Mostly meals, not much snacking. I gained back up to 232.5, but lost that within a day or so. Then I started taking some GX Assist my mother had given me. FOr 9 days it cleans you out. I only had one day when my reaction was kinda extreme, the second day. I felt ill, I had a headache, and I had like 5 BM’s that day. When one every other day is normal for me, that was a lot. Thank goodness those feelings subsided. For the rest of the 9 days I had more BM’s than usual, but nothing too drastic. I had a couple more milder headaches, but no more tummy upset. And then yesterday I started the PB Assist that I have 4 days to take – to replace the stuff that was flushed out with good probiotic bacteria. I feel good. I’ve lost 8 more pounds. I’m at 222 today.

I’ve been exercising lots of different ways: bikes with the kids and on my own (only 1 of those so far), running outside, running on the treadmill, T-Tapp when D is asleep on days when K isn’t around, Zumba on Mon and Wed if K is here to watch the kids. I’ve been eating a lot of produce with all my meals and snacks, and I’m still tracking on sparkpeople, mostly on my phone. I eat 3 meals and 2 snacks, if my schedule allows. Sometimes, time gets away from me when we’re out and about and I end up having just 3 meals (sometimes at snack times). I usually avoid starchy carbs at my evening meal, which means most days I’m kinda low-carb. I’m still not getting enough sleep, so that is something I need to work on. School starts next week and I’ll have to start getting up earlier, which I’m hoping will help me reset my body-clock to be able to get to sleep earlier. I’ve got D down to nursing twice a day, usually early morning around 4 or 5 AM, and when she goes to bed at night. When school starts, I hope to cut out that morning feeding, too.  I hope to keep losing weight at a good clip, but I can’t really control that. I can just control how I treat my body, so that’s what I’m trying to do. Some days I feel like I spend a lot of time cutting veggies and cooking. But I am a homemaker and mother of 3. So I feed more mouths than just my own, and that is part of my job. I feel blessed that I have the luxury to be here at home with them, and have the ability to have my kitchen at my disposal for my weight loss efforts.

I think those are the highlights for now. I will try to be more diligent about recording so that I can put in more details about our lives and the things the kids do and say. The main purpose fo a journal is for posterity, and I don’t want it to be a dry recounting of things post-fact.

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Here I Go Again

July 10, 2011 at 12:00 pm (General Life Updates, Plan)

On a quest to lose 90 pounds. I am following a slightly modified LIFE diet, and currently I am using a Sparkpeopl3 app on my phone to log my food. Quite possible I will burn out, but for now it is entertaining to log everything right there on my phone. I have lost somewhere between 9 and 5 pounds since Tuesday. I say somewhere between because the first day I didn’t weigh in until late afternoon, when my weight is probably at its highest. It was 239.5. The next morning it was 234.5, and now it is 230.5. So, I’m not exactly sure where to call my starting point. Perhaps, just to make myself feel good, I’ll say its 239. 🙂

I’m not even sure its a LIFE diet at this point. I am eating fruits and/or veggies with every meal and snack. Having a large salad with or before dinner. Not using anything but stevia to sweeten anything that needs sweetening (mainly oatmeal at this point). Not eating after 9:00 PM. Having 3 meals and 1-2 snacks a day. Eating a lot of produce with the meals. I am not going low-fat like the LIFE diet requires – I am using full-fat yogurt, coconut milk, peanut butter, etc. But I’m back to measuring out a reasonable portion of said fatty foods. I am not buying the foods that trigger me such as granola bars, or granola.

I am aiming for 5 hours of exercise per week. I haven’t reached that this past week, but I am learning what works. I have learned I can’t use the treadmill while D is asleep, so  I’m gonna have to start using it while she’s awake. Probably, I will put the 3 kids in P’s room and let them play in there together for the 30 minutes it takes me to work out. I don’t think that’s too unreasonable – 30 minutes isn’t that long. The trick is finding 30 minutes that D is in the mood to play and not fuss – a difficult task these days. She is pulling herself up and around on walls and furniture, and has even taken a couple tentative steps on her own a few times, but she’s not walking yet. Maybe the frustration is getting to her, maybe its more teeth coming in. Either way, she is very fussy and needy these days.

This coming week I am hoping to be able to attend both Zumba classes, Mon and Wed. That will be 2 hours of exercise. Then, if I walk/jog on the treadmill Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, I will be at about 4 hours. If I include some bodyweight exercises with a couple of those workouts (30 minutes worth), I will be at 5 hours. Its not a fool-proof plan, but that’s what I’m going to work toward. I want to purchase, perhaps from craigslist, a weight bench and some dumbbells, not necessarily together, to help expand the resistance training I can do.

I am planning on this taking about a year to lose. K hopes I will do it quicker, like say a pound a day for 90 days. Yeah right. I am also intending these eating habits to become deeply ingrained during that year, so that when I’ve lost the weight it is natural to just continue on the way I’ve been going to maintain my health.

Other than that, life goes on as normal. The kids drive me crazy. K works all the time except for his days off. He’s sleeping right now, and though I had a car and could have gone to church I wimped out for taking the kids by myself. He will wake up this afternoon and probably get called in again tonight. And his days off start on Friday so we have a few days until his schedule norms out. I might have offended the neighbor kids enough to have their mom tell them they can’t play with my kids anymore. I hope I’m wrong, but time will tell if I’m going to have to grovel and apologize. The other neighbor kids just got back yesterday and I hope P makes friends with one of them – they haven’t met yet but I really like their mom.

The summer reading program is over at the library; the kids had fun with the crafts each week and grand finale pizza party. We spent 4th of July with my parents in Monument – they came and got us on Sunday and brought us home on Tuesday. D slept with me for 2 nights, which wasn’t very restful. But we went to the Monument parade and the kids got candy and then we spent a nice afternoon playing in the pool, having the missionaries and our friends Aunt D and Uncle D over for BBQ. Keith worked 9 hours on the 4th, which is double-pay and will help since he didn’t get a lot of hours last week.

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A Banner Day

June 23, 2011 at 11:50 am (General Life Updates, Plan)

Yesterday I bit the bullet and made my chore/schedule charts. One for me, K2, and P. We will print up new ones each week as the old ones will be full of stickers from tasks accomplished. We’ve already used a bunch of stickers just filling in yesterday’s column. We have established a new routine of daily bed-making and room-cleaning. I have put scripture reading personally and with the family on the charts. They take turns putting away the silverware from the dishwasher. They are taped on our cupboard doors in the living room. Not fancy home decorating, but important.

Part of mine is brushing and flossing my teeth by 9:30 (which implies no eating after that). Last night I got a sticker. I also called and made a dentist appointment for this coming Monday for the cavity that is giving me a tooth ache. I’m scared to go – scared its gonna hurt. I’m such a wimp when it comes to my teeth, but I obviously can’t put it off any longer if I wanna keep my tooth. Eesh.

I didn’t put working out on my chart yet. Since there’s a new one each week, plus space to write stuff in, I can add it whenever. I’m considering walking on the treadmill right now since I just put D down for a nap. I also want to start walking with our neighbor next week. She goes either 1 or 3 miles depending on if she is going to the gym – she takes her dog. I’ll have to bring the kids, so I hope it doesn’t make her dog go crazy. She goes about the time I’m getting up in the morning, so its a good thing I’ve put getting to bed by 10:30 on my chart. I tried last night – and couldn’t get to sleep until almost midnight, then K got a call into work and D woke up to be fed. Ugh. So he’s been at work since 2:30 AM this morning and texted me this morning at about 10 to say he was gonna work a double, so we won’t see him until after dark tonight most likely. Kinda sucks cuz he was only up for an hour yesterday when he got home, and then went to bed by about 5:30 to sleep until he got that call at 1:15 AM.

I only have a couple more tasks to get done today. Dinner being one of them since I didn’t really make dinner yesterday. Going through paperwork and at least sorting out what I can throw away is something – I haven’t really filed in about 6 months. Sad, but true. Getting my filing and paperwork in order would take hours, so I’m going to try and tackle it a bit at a time. Laundry needs to be put away. And I need a shower sometime today – hopefully after I talk myself into exercising. Guess if I did T-Tapp I wouldn’t have to put on a sports bra. I dunno.

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Life trickles on

June 22, 2011 at 3:54 pm (General Life Updates)

All that build-up for our first house-guests, and the actual visit was quite anticlimactic. They didn’t get in until after the kids went to bed, about 9:30. K got home shortly before they got here, and they basically visited for a few minutes and then went to bed. D was pulling one of her stay-up-late stunts, so she went to bed about 10, and then K and I finished our Castle episode and went to bed ourselves – an early night for me and I had trouble getting to sleep. They left at about 6:30, which means our kids were up super-early and the day was quite long and drawn out after such an early summer day wake up call.

The weekend was nice, with a family grocery shopping trip on Friday and a drive to Estes Park on Saturday. The highlights of that were basically getting to see the elk on the golf course, pet a couple dogs (K2 isn’t shy about asking owners if he can pet their dogs), and getting to play at a big kids’ playpark for a while. It was windy and brisk for a summer day, with smatterings of rain, so P almost had a fear-of-thunder meltdown at one point. Estes Park is beautiful, and I wouldn’t mind going back with plans to walk the main strip with or without kids.

Sunday we got to go to church as a family for the first time in 2 months, and I had to sub in Primary so K and I were split up the 2nd and 3rd hour. But he had D, so it was a bit of a break for me. If our little classroom hadn’t been sweltering I would have enjoyed it a bit more. The four little boys in my CTR 4 class were cute and mostly well-behaved. One was quite a handful, but I think it helped that he didn’t know how strict I was so he was listening to me for the most part. If he were more familiar with me, he might not have paid so much attention. The afternoon was lazy and quiet – K2 was on TV restrictions so we mostly just hung out and K took a nap for his Father’s Day. Not that we did anything for Mother’s Day – K was working that day. I was on my own.

This week so far has been kinda lazy on my part. Monday morning I did some more tidying and cleaning as prep for MIL, SIL, and niece coming back from CA. They got here in the early afternoon, made a big mess in my clean kitchen making tacos (good thing they tasted good), stayed for an hour or so of visiting and then headed south. K got called in right before we sat down to eat so he ate and then had to leave for work. The visit was nice, but I was disappointed they didn’t stay longer. Understandable though since they were coming home from a trip that they’d be tired and want to get home. Nothing much else happened on Monday after they left.

Tuesday, K was sleeping for the morning, and then in the afternoon none of us did much. The kids played outside and I watched quite a few episodes of a TV show on Netfl1x. For dinner in a pinch, I used a recipe a friend gave me for cheese cakelets – crepe like pancakes whose main ingredient is cottage cheese. They were a hit and we ate them plain or with canned fruit on them.

Today we got up and got ready to go the weekly library summer-reading activity, which turned out to be a lady pretending to be Scottish and using her border collie and sock puppets “manned” by kids from the group to tell celtic and scottish tales. Mom and Dad were here, and after the activity, we went to Longmont for lunch and a baby gate (K2 broke our cheap wooden one a couple days ago).

I have dishes to do, laundry to put away, tidying of toys to do (not much point in that, since D will get them back out when she gets up and spread them around). The kids are outside eating ice cream, having just finished running through the sprinklers for a while. I have one book checked out, but I haven’t read a book since Monday. Should start dinner soon. Life is kinda monotonous and repetitive, but it is good. I get weighed down some days with the never-ending dishes, cleaning, laundry, etc. But my kids are happy and healthy (if a little tantrum-prone in K2’s case). They have friends and a safe neighborhood. P has been able to ride her bike without training wheels for about a week now, and it her proudest accomplishment in a while. Along with now choosing to read “chapter books” from the library and being so proud each time she starts new chapters.

I have things I want to start doing, things I want to improve. Chore and task charts for the kids. Dieting for me. We’ve cut down on TV time quite effortlessly because the kids have been outside a lot, but I’m sure they’ll ask on a rainy day or sometime to watch a bunch of TV and then it will be harder to enforce. But I’m determined to have them watching much less TV. I’m still watching a lot though, hypocrite that I am. 🙂 TV restriction has become the new punishment a la mode for K2 and his temper tantrums. Time out just isn’t proportionate to his rage when set off.

K is home from a 15 hour shift and will be going to bed soon. Gonna talk to him.

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