Goals will have to wait

December 31, 2009 at 11:24 am (General Life Updates)

Because we’re going camping to ring in the New Year. In the snow. And cold. In the mountains. The kids are so excited. The husband is twinkling and just barely resisting giggling like a school girl, he’s so excited.

I’m trying to be excited. Mostly, I’m dreading the cold, the boredom, the being-cut-off-from-civilization. I like nature, but only for so long.

I’ll let you know how it goes when we get back Saturday. Assuming we all survive. I wouldn’t mind if the dogs didn’t. Survive. They’re driving me crazy.


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Tuesday Night

December 29, 2009 at 8:09 pm (Uncategorized)

I did some cleaning and seeded the last 3 pomegranates. I did a T-Tapp workout that had me shaking and sweating. I’ve had a few Oreos, but eating today has been ok.

Not much else planned except hiding upstairs away from the kitchen after the kids go to bed in an hour. I was going to get a movie on pay-per-view, but nothing really appeals enough to pay 4.99 for it. So I’ll probably just watch the cheesy TV movies that I recorded last night and go to sleep – hopefully early enough to get up earlier tomorrow.

That’s it. 2 more days left in 2009. I’m trying to decide if I want to write down some goals for 2010 or not.

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Tuesday – not auspicious so far

December 29, 2009 at 1:59 pm (Daily Workouts/Eats, General Life Updates)

So let’s see, yesterday. I got up too late to get in a workout before I had to go to the office. So my morning consisted of reading blogs, eating green oats, getting ready for work. Then K and the kids and I loaded up and they took me to work. At work, I got some stuff done and spent 2 hours on a conference call with someone in Denver that has a lot of work for me to do and hadn’t been briefed on how the website works. I also spent some time dodging calls from the dealership since they’re bugging us about more and more paperwork for the loan. Stuff we’ve never had to provide to anyone before. Ridiculous.

They picked me up shortly after 4 and we went home to have K make some dinner – chicken, packaged brocolli cheddar rice, and zucchini. I didn’t have any rice to start with, instead filling up half my plate with the rest of my lettuce that hadn’t gone bad with some balsamic vinegar. But after eating half my chicken breast and my zucchini, I realized I was still hungry. I hadn’t had a snack at work other than a couple chocolates since my lunch of lentils, brown rice, and cauliflower. So I had some of the rice with dinner.

Since I hadn’t worked out in the morning, I tried all day to convince myself to work out last night. I thought I had myself convinced. And then, somehow, I started eating instead. And last night consisted of one of my worst binges in a while. I had the rest of the chocolate cheesecake with the kids (at least its gone), a larabar, 2 bowls of marshmallow maties, some of P’s nerds. After the kids went to bed, I had 2 tortillas with melted cheese, 2 yogurts. After K got home around 10, I had fruit snacks. I think that’s all, but I might be forgetting something amidst all the eating.

So, I’m back on track today. But geez. What the heck is my problem? I wasn’t hungry. I was fully aware of what I was doing, I could have stopped it. I didn’t.

Today I’ve had green oats w/ peanut butter & pomegranates. Now I’m having some brown rice and black beans and cheese. We’re almost out of veggies, so the next few days might be kind of iffy on stellar choices, but if I stick to prescribed snacks and meals, I should be fine. Going to make myself work out this afternoon, probably after K2 goes down for a nap. Tonight, I’m heading upstairs after the kids go to bed to get away from the kitchen and hopefully go to bed earlier.

Over and out.

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Christmas Recap

December 27, 2009 at 6:33 pm (General Life Updates)

Christmas Eve

During the day on Christmas Eve I got quite a lot done. Some laundry, helped the kids clean their rooms and changed their sheets. Made a quick Walmart run to buy supplies for chocolate zebra cheesecake and some new princess sheets for P’s bed; when I changed her sheets I realized the twin sheet on her bed was one of 2 twin fitted sheets that we own. Don’t know how that happened, but I decided to just splurge and get her the princess sheets I’ve been eyeballing at every store during Christmas shopping. I had hoped to get the cheesecake cooked in the afternoon but kids’ baths and cleaning and a good T-Tapp workout took precedence. K took off after I got back from the store to clean the club, but ended up having two phone calls that put him too behind schedule. So he ran to the store to buy my present and one more present for my little brother instead.

K got back and we all got ready to go to my SIL’s for her neighbor’s open house. We got to their house a little before 6 PM and went to the open house shortly after that. They were very nice people, their house was nice, and the food was GOOD. Meatballs, little sausages, rolls with deli trays, deviled eggs, fruit dip and fresh pineapple, and dessert trays galore. I thoroughly enjoyed my SIL’s contribution, which were these strawberry jam/cheesecake bars. I will have to get the recipe.

At 7 PM, Santa came downstairs and gave all the kids a present (brought by the parents). Our kids got the shirts that Aunt A and Uncle D sent from Japan. K2 was hilarious. He took the present from Santa without letting Santa touch him, came over and we helped him unwrap it while Santa moved on to another child. As soon as the rolled up shirt was unwrapped he ran back over to Santa – “Sata wook!!” until we called him back over. We unrolled it and when he figured out it was a shirt, he repeated the exercise. “Wook Sata! Shirt!” until we called him back over. We put it on him over his shirt and he did it again, this time spreading his arms to the sides sticking his chest out and lowering his chin to indicate what he was wearing – “Wook!!!” It was awesome and pretty darn funny. P’s reaction was more mellow, but she did go up there, smile and answer Santa’s “are you ready for Christmas” question and then come back to us and open her shirt, an adorable plaid pattern scoop scalloped lace neckline. The kids both had a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed the food. 🙂

Around 7:30 we headed back to SIL’s house to chat. We were going to play games but ended up just talking for a couple hours while the kids played on the mattress slide going down the basement stairs. By the time we got home, it was about 10 PM. Put the kids straight to bed and got started as quickly as possible on the chocolate zebra cheesecake, realizing as I read the directions (I haven’t made it in 6 years) that it was going to take over 3 hours to cook, with requirements from me, like turning the oven down, then off, then taking it out. Sheesh. But I made it, got up around 3 AM to finally take it out of the oven (K got up at 1:45 to turn the oven off – it had to sit in there for an hour). While I was making the cake, K moved all the presents to down around the tree, filled the stockings, and wrapped my present in a king-size pillow case. 🙂

Christmas Day

P woke up at 7:22. “I slept in Mommy, and there’s a present under the tree, and it has my name on it!!!!” I managed to keep her in bed with me for about 40 minutes. At 8 AM, I told her to try and wake up Dad and she shoved him a few times until he rolled over and mumbled, “give me 30 more minutes, eight, three, oh.” So P and I went downstairs where she tried to be interested in a yogurt and TV, but all she really wanted was to dive headfirst into the presents. Poor girl was so patient. She accidentally missed 8:30 on the clock and didn’t realize until 8:45, so K got a little more sleep than he asked for. We went back upstairs and got up K2 (he was sleeping deep) and sicced him on K, and then we all went downstairs. We were only downstairs for a few minutes before I couldn’t hold them off any longer and they started opening their first presents, which is luckily when K dragged himself into the room.

Opening went quickly after that – they were thrilled with everything. Doll stuff, coloring stuff, clay, dinosaur mountain, Transformers, Barbie doll styling head, more coloring stuff. Stockings with candy and slippers and new puzzles. Everything was open and being investigated by 9:00. I made a half-hearted effort to put together dinosaur mountain and realized it was going to take some hyroglyphic deciphering skills to assemble and loaded all the pieces into bags to take to the grandparents’ house for later.

We left the house with a bunch of toys the kids wanted to bring, presents for my brother and Mom, and the cheesecake, by shortly after 10:30. Right on schedule.

Mountain man breakfast wasn’t quite ready when we got there, so we chatted, the kids had some snack breakfasts and ran around. Then we had MM brekkie (SO GOOD!!!!) and were clearing up when the P’son’s got there. They dropped off my mom’s present (a quilt by DP – GORGEOUS), and a couple other things, had breakfast and took off to come back later for dinner. We got down to business with presents. The kids got some more fun stuff from Grandma and Grandpa, and I was pleased with the reactions to the gifts from us.

After everything was open, we moved on to some assembly and playing. The dinosaur mountain took some doing and some einstein skills. P’s barbie doll head was easier. And then came the tutu. Oh my gosh. Next time I see some crafty thing for $15 and think “I can make that” I’m just going to kick myself and BUY it. Good grief. It would have taken so much longer if my mom hadn’t cut the fabric while I tied. It turned out gorgeous and cute, and P loves it, so I’m glad we did it. But seriously. “I can make that” is very different than “is it worth $15 to not HAVE to make that?” It took so long that we had to move on to making dinner when we were done, and we didn’t have time to do gingerbread houses out of graham crackers. So that might be a craft for after New Year, since we have all the supplies at Grandma’s house.

Dinner was at about 6:30 or 7 and it was magnificent. The turkey was juicy, slightly fruity from soaking in a cranberry/pomegranate brine. The mashed and sweet potatoes were marvelous, the gravy was perfect. The salad was a nice perfunctory healthy contribution. But oh, my, that turkey. Got stuffed, which is unusual for me at a holiday meal. Usually I’m so excited about dessert, and so unthrilled with the turkey, that I don’t fill up at holiday meals at all. Oh, it was good.

After dinner and clear-up and talking, we started a game of Phase 10. Which went until 10:30, because we finished the darn thing. We had dessert around 9 – my cheesecake was amazing with some strawberry sauce made quickly in the blender. Decadent and rich and sweet. There are probably 3 pieces left today, and I’m planning on having one tonight again. K and I were both a little disbelieving when the older folks insisted on finishing the game of Phase 10. The kids were clamoring and tired, but we got it done. K won. Then we loaded up the toys, the presents (K got a counter-top toolbox from my parents – my idea), the rest of the cheesecake, some apple pie for later, and headed home. The kids didn’t get to bed until about 11.

It was a wonderful day.


I slept until 10:45 on Saturday, the kids slept until 11:30. K slept until 1 PM. There wasn’t time for much after that. Some tidying, some playing for the kids with their new stuff. I seeded two pomegranates after cleaning the kitchen. Oh, I received pans from K for my present, nice stainless steel ones to replace the crappy ones we’ve been using for 6 years. Only used one so far, but I’m excited to cook with all of them, especially the family-size skillet with a lid. K went to get some gas and for a quick store run in the afternoon and when he got back we loaded up again and went to his mom’s house (or his sister’s house) for tacos for his sister’s birthday. We had a nice taco dinner, the kids played, we played a card game. K left for an hour to go to a baptism, but it was a nice evening. The new card game we played was a little frustrating because the rules weren’t clear and there was a lot of ambiguity in the game, which made it kind of argumentative.

We got home too late again, and we were all tired for church today. Church was awful – I tell you Primary is kicking my butt. I had a major meltdown today when 2 of the other ladies were absent, unexpected on my part. I got it together enough to do my part at Sharing Time, but oh man, I hate not knowing what I’m doing. It all made me even more tired. K2’s nap is stretching to 4.5 hours right now. K didn’t sleep at all last night due to some weird insomnia, so he took a long nap this afternoon, too. I’ve eaten too much, slept a little.

Now K is up, but back upstairs watching sports. P is bugging me to play Uno with her, and I have no idea what we’re going to have for dinner. Tomorrow is Monday, not quite back to normal since P’s not back in school yet. But I’m hoping to work out in the morning BEFORE work and then I have to go to the office. I’m hating work these days, which doesn’t make 3 afternoons a week a good thing. Hoping to get together with my friend MF and my other friend KW this week, at different times. Not sure if I’ll be able to swing it. Actually want to make sure the KW happens because she’s going to talk to me about pregnancy nutrition and vitamins and I just love absorbing some of her knowledge.

Ok, over and out. Uno it is.

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So much to say, fingers so tired

December 23, 2009 at 8:26 pm (General Life Updates)

So its been a while since I wrote. What to say? What to leave out? How much detail?

Friday. Normal day. Work in office – busy. Friday night. I don’t remember, so it couldn’t have been eventful.

Saturday. Got up early to go shopping with Mom. Joann’s for fabric for tutu – got some pretty tulle and ribbons. Mall. Got brother his slippers and some argyle socks at AEO. Stopped at a couple other stores but I don’t think we bought anything. Lunch at ChickfilA. Had a great time talking and spending time with Mom, without the kids.

OH, wait, just remembered Friday night. It WAS eventful. The girls (cousins 15 and 13) came over and spent the night,  because K had asked me to work with him. So I went with him and cleaned three locations. He kept asking if I was having fun because he was, and I’m like, duh, no, I’m cleaning! How is that fun? It was enjoyable to spend the time going from place to place with him, but I was so tired by 12:30 when we got done. I think I helped because they wouldn’t normally get done with all 3 until 1 or 2 AM. I sometimes go to bed as late as 12:30, especially after a binge. But staying up that late cleaning was definitely different than sitting in front of the TV eating. 🙂

Anyway, back to Saturday. After the mall we hit the dollar store for some stocking stuffers for the kids and plates for my baking day on Tuesday (yesterday). Then Mom took me home where I don’t remember what I did for the rest of the day. I was so tired!! I think I might have had a short nap. K and I watched a movie together Saturday night.

Sunday was a very painful day at church. Everything seemed to go wrong during the Primary hour and I still don’t know what I’m doing in there. In the end, it was me doing singing time with our fill-in pianist and then me and her closing out the hour with the prayer because everyone else had somehow left. I was very glad when the whole thing was over. Sunday afternoon consisted of naps for almost everyone (P stayed awake) after K and I had a huge fight about NOTHING and I totally overreacted. Sunday evening I think we were at home – if we went anywhere for dinner I don’t remember.

Monday I had work in the afternoon and then we went to K’s sister’s and mom’s for dinner. Roast, potatoes, carrots, salad, rolls. It was all very good, and as usual I ate a little too much. But not too bad. We hung out and talked until late. Tuesday (yesterday) I got myself and the kids up early and we headed up to the Air Force Academy to meet Mom at the post office up there to send in my passport application. Got that done and headed over to the commissary for baking supplies, then Mom took the kids and headed to her house while I stopped at Walmart on the way for the things the commissary didn’t have.

By the time we got to Mom’s and got baking, it was almost 11 AM, and I baked until about 6 PM last night. Then I made dinner for everyone (kids, me, Mom and Dad). Green eggs and ham. Literally. 🙂 Scrambled eggs with minced brocolli and cheese and ham and toast. I baked pumpkin chocolate chip muffins, baked caramel corn, turtle candies, and sugar cookies. Then I assembled 10 plates of goodies to give away. I have 3 left to give, 2 to neighbors that just haven’t been home this evening since I got home from work.

Today, I’ve gone to work and done some dishes and that’s about it. Some laundry.

Tomorrow, I’m hoping to get some more laundry done, a workout done in the morning, dishes done and loaded up for Christmas Day. The house tidied and the counter cleared off for Christmas Day.

I haven’t been eating too badly, probably too much. Haven’t been working out enough. So tired all the time, especially in the evening when I usually work out. I’ve decided that until this pregnancy exhaustion lets up, I’m going to start working out as often as I can during the day. If I have no time during the day, I’m going to try and do BWO+ at night – hopefully convincing myself to 15 minutes a day will go ok. The eating at night isn’t going well – as in, I’m eating at night. I ate much less of yesterday’s baking than I expected myself to.

Christmas Day – we’ll go to Monument for mountain man breakfast with my family and presents. Then the kids and I (and hopefully adults will join in) are going to make simple graham cracker/gingerbread houses. I’ve also decided that P and I are going to make her tutu together on Christmas Day since I’m not going to have time, nor do I have any scissors to get it done before then. I’m hoping to get my neighbor’s framed picture done in the next couple of days, but I guess its possible they won’t get it until New Years. 🙂

Next week will be work as normal, but no school for P yet. Hoping to settle into a semi-normal workout schedule during the days next week. Saturday, K wants to take as much of the extended family as possible and go shooting. Sunday I have to do Sharing Time and I’m trying not to think about it (maybe a mistake) until after Christmas.

Have to do some work tonight so that I don’t have to do it tomorrow. That’s about it from my corner of the world tonight.

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I don’t wait until Monday anymore

December 17, 2009 at 8:02 pm (Daily Workouts/Eats, General Life Updates, Success Story)

So many of the blogs I read are doing posts about all that they’ve accomplished during 2009. Summarizing goal lists and whether or not they got ‘er done. Well, I didn’t have any goals for 2009. Not really. I’ve been working for longer than that on reestablishing my workout habit so that it is natural and easy. Still not there. I had been working on losing weight for longer than that. I had been working on eating healthy longer than that. Unsuccessfully, for the most part.

So I’d just like to say that this year I feel like I’ve accomplished more than the last couple years, even without ‘goals’.

1) I can cope better. See “I’ve Been Reading My Own Blog” post from a couple weeks ago.

2) I don’t wait until Monday anymore to start over. Every once in a while I’ll have a bad couple of days that might just happen to span a weekend. But usually, when I have a day of overeating or overindulging, I start over fresh the next day, or sometimes even the next meal. Usually, the next day because typically when I overindulge its late at night. This is a big one for me considering for years, with every plan I’ve ever tried, if I “fell off” or “messed up” I’d wait until the next week to “start over” and “try again”. Now, I just start right away. I think one of the keys to this is the new ways of eating that I’ve found to include vegetables and fruit that I truly enjoy.

3) I’ve found a way of keeping track of my days and things I want to get done that seems to work for me. Also a way of planning meals that seems to work for me. Mainly, my laminated weekly menu and my laminated daily to-do list.

4) My exercise habit is going pretty strong. I got sick a while ago and took about a week off, which was probably more than I needed. But for the most part, I’ve found a couple of ways of working out that I know I will do and that are good for me. Full-body compound movement circuits with simple weights and exercise bands, treadmill running/walking, T-Tapp, and the occasional outdoor run or 5K race.

5) I’ve lost 40 pounds. I’m pregnant and trying to maintain that weight loss for the beginning of the pregnancy and gain a healthy amount of weight. Planning on getting right back on the weight loss wagon after the baby comes, if all goes well.

This might not be much, but I’m pleased with it. I have to be, guilt and beating myself up is not productive. I can only do my best at the time. And hope my best is getting better all the time.

With that in mind, after yesterday’s brownie-bite extravaganza, today’s eats so far. Its proving a little difficult to tame the hunger-beast. I find no matter what I eat that I’m having stomach-rumbling hunger pangs shortly after. So this is definitely more than I hope to be eating once the first-weeks-pregnancy hunger subsides:

  • 2 clementines, clif kidz bar, about 1/2 cup plain yogurt
  • tortilla, 2 eggs, 1 oz cheese, 2 turkey slices, 1/2 summer squash (burrito)
  • yogurt, pomegranate arils, clif kidz bar
  • shrimp (4 oz) cooked in little coconut oil, lemon juice and seasonings, lettuce, homemade balsamic dressing, steamed brocolli, 1/2 cup quinoa cooked in chicken broth
  • clementine

Planning on having something else soon, because I’m hungry again. Will probably have more yogurt and arils (SO GOOD, crave it all the time the last couple days). Maybe another clementine or an apple.

I think tomorrow I’ll thaw the one serving I have left of butternut squash soup. I cooked a butternut yesterday, but I didn’t really like the way it turned out just to eat. So I think I’ll probably continue to make soup with butternuts, or purees that I can put in other things.

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Killer T-Tapp workout – P’s Christmas Break officially started

December 17, 2009 at 1:07 pm (General Life Updates)

Yesterday at work actually wasn’t too bad. Enough urgent things came up while I was there that the not-so-fun-ongoing stuff I have to do was pushed to the backburner and the afternoon went very quickly. On the yummy-but-not-healthy side, there was a big basket of baked goodies in the kitchen and a box of Harry & David chocolates at the front desk. And I did a lot of damage to the brownie bites in the basket and the chocolates, and that was AFTER a full-size sub for lunch in our lunch meeting with white bread and hardly any lettuce. I was happy with myself for not eating the Fritos – those aren’t good to me and I had a couple thinking they would be ok and then stopped because they’re blah. I also had a couple bites of the chocolate chip cookie and wasn’t impressed so I stopped eating that, too.

But then, the brownie bites. Ugh. I ate a LOT of them. Total sugar-high by the time I left the office.

On the way in, I stopped at the Dollar store and got some simple-looking mugs and some cellophane bags to put P’s teacher’s presents in. When I got home after dinner, I helped her make some simple tags for the simple presents with her teachers’ names and then let her decorate them. K had made dinner when I got home, chicken cordonbleu’s (only with brocoli and cheese instead), processed pasta mix, and corn. Not a nutritious meal. And floating on my sugar high of brownies, I ate almost all of it without even really thinking it through – and I was full just a few bites in. Dangit.

I brought home some advent calendars that a friend at work had not sent to her grandkids on time. So we had to catch up to the 16th, and the kids had fun opening up 16 days worth of little chocolates. K2 wanted to eat them all and was very ticked when I wouldn’t let him, but P was ok with it. Now, today, I’ll let them open one and eat it. A few days more to go.

After I put the kids down for bed, I decided to do T-Tapp Tempo Intermediate, which ups the reps on most of the exercises from 8 to 10. And I worked really hard at my form and concentrated on all the stuff you’re supposed to bend, and tuck and twist. And OH MAN did it work me over but good!!!! I was a shaky, ready-to-fall-down mess at the end!!! It felt so great!!!

Then I sat down to watch some TV and got hungry and had 2 bowls of plain yogurt with lots of pomegranate arils and then quite a few too many of those creme brulee almonds. Today, I’m going to move those to the back of the cupboard so they’re harder to get into. Sheesh.

P’s kindergarten Christmas party was this morning. I ended up going alone since K was still asleep and so was K2 and I didn’t feel very good or up to wrangling them both out of bed and ready and over to the school. And I forgot the camera!! Another DANGIT!!! Anyway, they recited Twas the Night Before Christmas with little motions, decorated cookies, broke a pinata, got some treats from teachers and classmates who had birthdays, and had punch. P had quite a good time. I have to constantly supress my desire to dive into the thick of things and do P’s speaking for her. She’s so reticent and shy that I feel like I want to stand up for her, even when she doesn’t really need me to. Like when they were decorating cookies and each little pod of desks was sharing a few bottles of sprinkles and icing, and I kept wanting P to speak up and ask the other little girls (by name) for what she wanted to use. If I’m not careful, I’m like a momma bulldozer. 🙂

So this means she’s out for Christmas break. Almost 3 weeks of not having to get up to take her to school – I’m going to get super-spoiled and  out of the habit. I’m looking forward to it, at the same time that I’m a little worried about what that will do to my ability to get stuff done. If I sleep in, I don’t get started as early, I don’t have time to do stuff before work, I don’t read my scriptures (usually happens after I drop her off before I get K2 up for breakfast), and I have shorter days. I’ll want to stay up later because I won’t have gotten up as early. And the cycle repeats. So maybe I should set my alarm for each day anyway, and do my darndest to get up regardless. We’ll see.

Today I’ve had a slightly unusual day of eating so far. I was super hungry this morning before P’s party, but I didn’t feel good (because I was hungry) and didn’t feel like eating. And I was tired (still am dragging a bit). So I had 2 clementines, a small bowl of plain yogurt with about a T of hot cocoa powder, and a Clif Kidz granola bar. At her party, I had a few sips of Fruit Punch mixed with 7Up because I could feel myself getting hungry, but that didn’t taste good. So as soon as I got home, I started on a breakfast burrito that kind of got carried away. A whole bunch of sliced summer squash, 2 slices of thinly shaved turkey meat, 2 scrambled eggs, and a slice of cheese all on a ww tortilla. It was super-yummy and very filling.

Now, we’re getting ready to leave for the dealership to hopefully only spend a little bit of time on some more paperwork. I really don’t want to spend all afternoon there. It would be cool if I could go to the mall today to get my brother, T’s, present, and if I could go with my friend (M). But it would be short notice for her and I don’t know if she’d be able to swing it with her 3 boys and they’re varied school schedules. I might call and ask if I get to go though. Can’t hurt.

Other than that, I’d like to get some more cleaning done today (I got a lot of cleaning done on Tuesday, organizing of the kids’ rooms, moving lots of boxes of outgrown clothes down into the crawl space and opening up K2’s room a lot, vacuuming, dusting). I’d like the house to be nice and tidy/clean for Christmas. Though of course, it never stays that way.

Ok, looks like the DH is ready to go. Off to the dealership.

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Too many night snacks, but no binges

December 15, 2009 at 10:43 pm (General Life Updates)

A pretty pleasant afternoon. We ended up going to the pawn shop to pawn a couple of my husband’s guns to tide us over until payday. I hate doing this, but it sure is handy for when you need some cash. Then we went grocery shopping and spent way more than I’d intended. Ugh, we suck at money management.

On the happy side, they still had pomegranates at Sam’s Club!!! I was so excited, I bought 3 trays of 4. That’s 12 pomegranates, which is a lot of seeding work for me to do. I did two tonight, so excited to have some pomegranate yogurt. Yum!! So I had that as my after-dinner snack. Dinner was my garlic-crock-pot chicken with homemade dressing on a salad with brocoli and cauliflower chopped up really small and some sprinkled parmesan. I didn’t have any of the packaged brocoli cheddar rice I made for the rest of the family, but I did add more brocoli to their rice package.

I worked out – a run and some abs work. Then I had 2 clementines and quite a few of the candied creme brulee almonds that we got at Sam’s today. Evil, those are. But so good!!!

Off to bed now. Excited about my planned eats for tomorrow. Not excited to go to work, though.

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Almost OK Pancakes

December 15, 2009 at 11:21 am (General Life Updates)

I worked out last night for the first time in a week. It felt good – was hard to convince myself to do it. I did two sets of some simple squats and arm weights and then walked/ran for 35 minutes. 1.5 minutes of running to every 2.5 minutes of walking, and even that was hard. I’m not sore today, but I wouldn’t have been surprised if I was.

Weighed in at 191 this morning. I’m good with that number, I would assume I’ll stay there if I continue to have days like yesterday. Chocolate at work, but not ridiculous amounts, healthy meals and snacks. Ate some pumpkin seeds and a small handful of mini-wheats after my workout before bed since I was already hungry again. So, not too bad, but not a perfect eating day. I didn’t binge at night due to the workout, which is a big improvement.

This morning I made pancakes…. sort of. I was using my whole wheat blender recipe, but I only had 1/2 the milk I needed. So I used half the milk and half the whole wheat, and then I forgot I was halving everything and I used the regular portions for applesauce, oil, baking powder, honey, and eggs. And then I added 1/2 cup pumpkin and some spinach and ended up with too thick of a batter. So I added some half and half and evaporated milk since I had no more regular milk, and then when that wasn’t enough, some water. They cooked up really slowly and were doughy in the middle until I figured out to wait really long to flip them, and then squash them out the sides when I flipped them. They tasted pretty good, but I’m thinking that the leftovers will be better when toasted because they’ll be crispier. I had my three small pancakes with 1/2 cup of stevia-sweetened plain yogurt and cinnamon.

Today I have a lot of cleaning on my to-do list. I’d love to go grocery shopping, but I don’t have any money. We have plenty of vegetables, but everything else is either low-supply or already gone.

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12 days left

December 14, 2009 at 10:57 am (General Life Updates)

Christmast is coming on fast, folks. Anyone ready yet? I’m sort of close to ready. I made a list this weekend of the things left to do, and there are quite a few.

  • Get P’s teachers’ presents ready by finding a mug and some cellophane to put them in
  • Wrap everything
  • Buy my brother’s present at the mall w/ gift card
  • Buy supplies for 1) packaging treats to give away, and 2) to make a tutu for P
  • Make treats to give away (baking day at Mom’s next week)
  • Make tutu
  • Get a couple of stocking stuffers
  • Deliver treats to selected families/friends
  • Buy supplies to make zebra cheesecake and overnight cinnamon rolls for Christmas Day

I know that last one isn’t very healthy, but I’ve been waiting all year for an excuse to make those two things and by golly, I’m making them. The zebra cheesecake is actually pretty expensive to make with the Oreo crust, and white and milk chocolate for the filling flavors. But BOY OH BOY is it worth it.

Anyway, quite a bit to do, but I’m excited about most of it.

This weekend was good and bad at the same time. Good first:

We went and cut down our Christmas tree on Saturday and it was a good time. We got started later than we had wanted to, but it turned out ok. We had to pick P up on our way out since she had a sleepover at her cousin’s (A) house (where they apparently had tons of fun and watched “Up” twice). Then we headed up to Pike National Forest where we took 3 different roads before K found the one he was looking for that took us back far enough into the forest that there was plenty of snow to sink into. And sink we did.

At first, K2 was not having it and he wanted to be carried. But then he figured out how fun it is to fall down in the snow and wallow. He kept face planting it on purpose and then crawling on his stomach through it. Later, he figured out how to sit down in it and pull the snow up over his lap, repeating “castle! castle!” P had a great time tromping through and climbing little hills. K2 was wearing P’s pink boots that she outgrew, so he was a little man child with pink boots.

We found our tree after much deliberation and P proclaiming that she wanted to keep looking and look at ALL the trees. Um, no. It is the shortest tree we’ve ever gotten, but probably the most full and symmetrical otherwise.

Oh, and the puppy puked in the back on the way there, which was fun to discover when we parked to find the tree. But the dogs had just as much of a blast as the kids.

On our way out of the forest, we passed a car that we’d followed into the forest. They’d braked coming around a corner and slid off the road. A joint effort was made to pull them out while cars piled up going both ways because of the obstruction. Hopefully, no one got in an accident due to impatience and rudeness.

When we got home, K set the tree up and I got right to work making a pumpkin crumb cake for our ward Christmas party. It was finished just in time. While it was cooking I got dressed while the kids played (A was over again while her parents shopped and had a date night). K went to a quick court of honor and then came back for us – we loaded up with the cake and the kids to go to the party….

Which was surprisingly enjoyable. I got to talk to a couple of people that I usually don’t get to talk to a lot at church, and I’m hopefully going to do some stuff with this one mom (M). The food was pretty good, and there was a fair amount available. That’s always a concern with these church parties; it seems to me like people come purposely starving and pile their plates higher than is appropriate when there are so many people to be fed. But that’s just me. People will be people.

The kids had fun running around with other kids. Literally, running in circles. And I got to bring some of my cake home. We didn’t leave until 8 – which means we were there for almost 2.5 hours. Much longer than I expected. We took A home and then it was home for kids’ quick bath and bedtime. And I didn’t work out – I was wiped. But did I go to bed??? no. Duh. I stayed up way too late eating food. Hm. Let’s not dwell.

Sunday was part of the bad. I just got overwhelmed by the dishes that were piled all over my counters, the tree that wasn’t decorated yet, the house that was dirty, the laundry that needed to be done. I was feeling stressed out about being pregnant and trying not to gain weight while I haven’t worked out in a week and seem determined to keep eating even when I don’t want to. I was stressed about the dogs and the fact that one of them is hurt right now and limping. I was worrying about money and to-do lists and just everything. My calling at church that I still know nothing about and feel completely inadequate for.

Well, I feel better today. I cried at church to a friend. I came home, got in a huge fight (for almost NO reason) with K wherein I overreacted and called my husband an idiot. Like an idiot. I decorated the tree with P while K slept to get away from me. I did the dishes. I tidied up a bit. The kids and I went to my parents’ for dinner, while K slept and continued to avoid me. Then I came home, put the kids to bed with minimal conversation with K, K left for work with a kiss and no “i love you”, and then I fell asleep watching TV. Slept in the chair until almost midnight and then got up and went to bed. Without brushing my teeth or washing my face. Lovely.

But I feel better today. I’ve started some laundry, the dishes are caught up. The living room is dusted and the tree looks pretty along with the other Christmas decorations that are out now around the room. My cold is virtually gone so there is no reason not to work out tonight, and I’ve started off the day with some green blended oats, fruit, and peanut butter on top. I took P to school and came home and read some scriptures.

I can handle this. I can. I apologized to my husband. Hopefully, he’ll wake up feeling like talking to me today. We’ll see.

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